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I hate it when there is no order to my life.. and i don't have a set schedule..
school started, today will mark the day when i've been to every class twice now and the teachers begin to actually teach.. i'm not really looking forward to half of tonight, i have art at 5-6:45 then i have about a 10 minute walk or so to my biology class and theres like 250 people in there, its crazy, and i didn't think that any of my classes were gonna be that large..i enjoyed the art class monday but the bio class is soo late, well really its not that late, it starts at 7 and ends at 815 but its dark, and after that class, i have one chance to catch the campus loop bus that will take me to the stadium bus that will take me to my car, and if i miss either of those busses i ahve to walk like two miles or something and its really cold and by then its like 830 and i am scared that i will miss the bus.. monday when he let our class out the bus was starting to take off which means that i almost missed it.. and its soo easy to get lost i still havn't figured out where i am going..
whoo it feels good to get that off my chest..
i need to clean, i cleaned real good before jesse got here and after he left the place was slightly trahsed, but he was sweet and washed the dishes so i wouldn't have to b/c he knew everything was clean before he got there, its fine, i will just hvae to get used to his mess and then teach him to pick it up since it'll be both of ours instead of just his or mine...
three of my classes are really actually fun, they're my educ classes, music art and creative drama, and i say they're fun b/c they're active classes, we get to play, create, sing and express ourselves, and i find that much more enjoyable then sitting there just listening.. and today i was using the bathroom and figured that what i am going to be doing will just be my hobbies with resposabilities, and just now it hit me taht yes, making crafts is a hobby.. cause what my thought was was that i love making things and coloring and singing and acting out and telling people what to do, and i am now being taught how to be better at all of those types of things, like i don't have to worry about stuff that wont be useful to me kinda in my own way.. lol, i just like having fun..
don't know how else to say it,
don't want to see my parents go
one generation's length away
from fighting life out on my own
come on stop this train
i want to get off and go home again
i can't take the speed it's moving in
i know i can but honestly won't someone stop this train
so afraid of getting older
i'm only good at being young
so i play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
everytime i listen to this feel what he was saying and i totally agree and its like the scarriest thing since death.. but john knows how to say it
i need to get ready, and i need a schedule, i go to bed at 2 get up at 11 wait till 3:30 get ready for school, get back at 9 and chill go to bed at 1 get up at 10ish get ready for school which starts at 1230 then do all that get back at 340 or so and chill do homework and not a whole lot of anything else unless i have company or go to houston.. i might think about getting a job, i just don't want to work on the weekends.. i really wish i had more hours.. win some and then ya lose some, either way i have what feels like a ton of free time and then it'll all be gone and i'll be like, man where'd all that time go...
which reminds me of why i was thinking in the bathroom, and why i should be a teacher for k or 1st.. i am a social person and i like to be around a lot of people so i can talk and i enjoy all of the color, but not all of the time, i like the dark too, but the problem with right now is that i have an abundance of solitude and darkness since i live alone and keep the curtins drawn.. and i don't have a balance of color...
btw.. i know i kinda just stopped in the middle of nowhere on that thought but i got lost and sometimes its better to abandond ship rather than sailing into a vortex and i was headed into one.. ok
bye xo!!
school started, today will mark the day when i've been to every class twice now and the teachers begin to actually teach.. i'm not really looking forward to half of tonight, i have art at 5-6:45 then i have about a 10 minute walk or so to my biology class and theres like 250 people in there, its crazy, and i didn't think that any of my classes were gonna be that large..i enjoyed the art class monday but the bio class is soo late, well really its not that late, it starts at 7 and ends at 815 but its dark, and after that class, i have one chance to catch the campus loop bus that will take me to the stadium bus that will take me to my car, and if i miss either of those busses i ahve to walk like two miles or something and its really cold and by then its like 830 and i am scared that i will miss the bus.. monday when he let our class out the bus was starting to take off which means that i almost missed it.. and its soo easy to get lost i still havn't figured out where i am going..
whoo it feels good to get that off my chest..
i need to clean, i cleaned real good before jesse got here and after he left the place was slightly trahsed, but he was sweet and washed the dishes so i wouldn't have to b/c he knew everything was clean before he got there, its fine, i will just hvae to get used to his mess and then teach him to pick it up since it'll be both of ours instead of just his or mine...
three of my classes are really actually fun, they're my educ classes, music art and creative drama, and i say they're fun b/c they're active classes, we get to play, create, sing and express ourselves, and i find that much more enjoyable then sitting there just listening.. and today i was using the bathroom and figured that what i am going to be doing will just be my hobbies with resposabilities, and just now it hit me taht yes, making crafts is a hobby.. cause what my thought was was that i love making things and coloring and singing and acting out and telling people what to do, and i am now being taught how to be better at all of those types of things, like i don't have to worry about stuff that wont be useful to me kinda in my own way.. lol, i just like having fun..
don't know how else to say it,
don't want to see my parents go
one generation's length away
from fighting life out on my own
come on stop this train
i want to get off and go home again
i can't take the speed it's moving in
i know i can but honestly won't someone stop this train
so afraid of getting older
i'm only good at being young
so i play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
everytime i listen to this feel what he was saying and i totally agree and its like the scarriest thing since death.. but john knows how to say it
i need to get ready, and i need a schedule, i go to bed at 2 get up at 11 wait till 3:30 get ready for school, get back at 9 and chill go to bed at 1 get up at 10ish get ready for school which starts at 1230 then do all that get back at 340 or so and chill do homework and not a whole lot of anything else unless i have company or go to houston.. i might think about getting a job, i just don't want to work on the weekends.. i really wish i had more hours.. win some and then ya lose some, either way i have what feels like a ton of free time and then it'll all be gone and i'll be like, man where'd all that time go...
which reminds me of why i was thinking in the bathroom, and why i should be a teacher for k or 1st.. i am a social person and i like to be around a lot of people so i can talk and i enjoy all of the color, but not all of the time, i like the dark too, but the problem with right now is that i have an abundance of solitude and darkness since i live alone and keep the curtins drawn.. and i don't have a balance of color...
btw.. i know i kinda just stopped in the middle of nowhere on that thought but i got lost and sometimes its better to abandond ship rather than sailing into a vortex and i was headed into one.. ok
bye xo!!