fairytales
am i the only one that ever thinks "what's the piont?"? no, i know i'm not because you've all said as much to me before, so here's the beginning of my nervous break down (these are only the first signs, full blown breakdown is sheduled for mid november) i have NO motivation. seriously, i have a physics test tomorrow and i don't CARE!!!! which is totally unlike me, and it may be senioritis, but i really don't get it. i've always been a good student, i've never gotten anything below an B+ in any class, and all of a sudden, i just don't care if i fail. it's weird, because i still fell good when i do well on things, or understand my physics homework, but its like now, if i don't really get it, screw it , i'm reading Harry Potter!!! and thats another thing. has anyone ever read Harry Potter or LOTR and just thought to themselves, "what i do really doesn't matter. seriously, if i were to die tomorrow, the world wouldn't be in great perril, it's just go on" (as i write this i realize that i could be writing a suicide note, but i'm not) but really, i read those books and it's like, "who cares if i don't get an A in Pre-Calc, i don't HAVE to, like Frodo HAS to throw the ring in the fire" the more i think about it, i think it's senioritis. also, i do way too much. as Brooks Murphy stated so bluntly, "don't you ever breathe? if there's something going on, you're there!" i know this, and yet, i can't help it. i love being involved, but i love sleep. i need a happy balance! gotta go, parents are looking over the shoulder!