It's been a while

[rapturoushell]

                                Wow my last post has been so long ago.
                                         For those of you that care:

Positive:

- Scott and I have been together for 8 months now
- My mom and dad found a new house
- I saw Jay yesterday for the first time in 10 months
- I only cried three times on Valentine's Day, I'll always miss

Comments

[rapturoushell]

I saw him off of Merril. My mom and I went to a thift store over there and He was in the BurgerKing Drive thru Mom went in the store while i told her I had to talk to a friend. Walked up to his window and tapped. He looked at me surprised as hell. He got his food and we sat in the grass talking. For to first 5 minutes all he did was hug me. Asked me if i was doing okay. and Why i moved out, who im living with, etc. I told him about Scott and he got quiet didnt talk much while i told him about our relationship. We Talked about kyle and my pepa. Dusty is done with college and wants to move back to Cali or North Carolina (for some reason). Jay *I knew it would happen* dropped out of college as soon as we stopped talking. I told him where the apartment was and everything and if he wanted to come by that he could. and he said "I dont want to. I dont want to meet the guy that youre in love with, Im not going to hurt myself intentionally, not anymore." We talked alittle bit more about everything then he had to go. I told him I was sorry and he would still always be one of my best friends and he smiled kissed me on the forehead told me he loved me and walked away. Made me sad to see him go but it was nice seeing him.

[lil_saint]

aawweeeeee

that sucks he doesnt want to meet him.
whats he gonna do when u n scott get married?! not go to the wedding!? lol
i knew hed drop out too =0/ sad sad sad.

[rapturoushell]

Yeah I know. I hate to say it but I doubt he'll ever meet him. I wish he would let the past be the past. I know he loves me still and I love him just not in the way he wants me to. And I know if Scott and I got married Dusty would prolly show up and Jay would stay in West Palm (or where ever they are living by then) and throw a fit. =/ I miss him and D tho :(