Sep 07, 2007 20:03
Well Crys ended up talking to me later that night after I made my last post. I guess she just needed time to organize her thoughts before she spoke to anyone about her stresses. She's talked to me a lot since then, saying that she wants to get to the point where she tells me everything. That made me feel good, especially since I never even mentioned to her that what she said had bothered me. I think she's just trying to feel out her place with me, and she's slowly starting to see that just because I have a boyfriend, doesn't mean she is only a half-partner or something... she is my girlfriend and should be able to confide anything with me, just as she would with a monogamous partner. She is new to it all, and it will take some time for her. But I think she's handling everything beautifully and she seems to be pretty happy with our relationship.
Jake has still had some battles going on with himself. Things with Ryn didn't end up working out. He found that he didn't really harbor any true feelings for her, and ended the relationship before anyone could get hurt. I really wished things would have worked out for them. But he has to do what's right for him. In the meantime, he has a hard time on the nights that I plan to see Crys. He feels lonely and doesn't know what to do with himself. The last couple days he seems to be slowly coming out of his funk though, I just want him to have the chance to experience the same happiness that I am going through. I want him to be able to appreciate the days that he and I do get to spend with each other, and have nice days with him, instead of him feeling sorry for himself, and me trying to no avail to help him feel better. I just want him to find what it is he's looking for. I don't know how to help him do that. I wish I did. But as I said, he seems to be doing better the last couple days, and I hope it continues that way.