How to Save a Life....
How to save a life...
12:14am Today | Edit Note | Delete
For a week now i have sat down mutiple times in front of my computer intent on writing a new note on here and each time i have gotten up and decided against it.
I have successfully watched the entire Grey's Anatomy Season 2 DVD Set. I bought it the day it came out on Tuesday and i have dedicated 20 hours to this show.
I love college, i really do. It has made me realize so many things. It has made me realize how much i love the people back in Tallahassee that were so actively involved in my life. My parents are absolutly amazing. Sometimes when i am alone here in my room i think about that fact that i will never be living with them in that house again and i'll never be their "little girl" again, although i will still be there little girl. I miss Lauren. Its so nice to be able to talk to her and i've grown so attached to our dates when i am in town. She has stuck by me through everything and i am so glad that we aren't losing touch. and i hope everything works out between her and Kris, i wish them the best of luck.
It has also made me realize how much i cherish and miss my faith. Getting down here and getting involved with FCA and Campus Crusade for Christ has made me remember what i found in my relationship with Christ so amazing. I am finally getting back to the place i want to be with God.
Not to mention i think i finally know what i want to do with my life. I made an appointment to meet with my advisor tomorrow and officially change my major from Music Education to Event Management. If everything goes according to plan I will be a student at the UCF Rosen College of Hospitality Management. I'm really excited, i'm finally excited about life.
I miss Justin. Its beggining to be unbearable. It's only been a little over a week and i feel like a piece of my heart has been ripped out of my body. I only have a week left...
I am falling apart...or at least thats how it feels..i don't have all the answers..i'm not sure of everything..i'm not perfect and i don't want to be. I just wish that i could get some support. and i know there are people that are backing me but it dosen't always feel that way. i just want someone to tell me to stick it out, let it go, i'm here to listen or talk, or you can do whatever you put your mind to..
i've pretty much spent the time from 12-8 crying my eyes out. I can't decide if it is actually from Grey's Anatomy or if thats just what i say it is..
I'm not sure if i actually said what i wanted to on here or not, but i don't really care. It's hard to think right now.....
i really like this song..
*How to Save a Life-The Fray*
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong (where did I go wrong), I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up (I would of stayed up) with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.
-Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy
12:14am Today | Edit Note | Delete
For a week now i have sat down mutiple times in front of my computer intent on writing a new note on here and each time i have gotten up and decided against it.
I have successfully watched the entire Grey's Anatomy Season 2 DVD Set. I bought it the day it came out on Tuesday and i have dedicated 20 hours to this show.
I love college, i really do. It has made me realize so many things. It has made me realize how much i love the people back in Tallahassee that were so actively involved in my life. My parents are absolutly amazing. Sometimes when i am alone here in my room i think about that fact that i will never be living with them in that house again and i'll never be their "little girl" again, although i will still be there little girl. I miss Lauren. Its so nice to be able to talk to her and i've grown so attached to our dates when i am in town. She has stuck by me through everything and i am so glad that we aren't losing touch. and i hope everything works out between her and Kris, i wish them the best of luck.
It has also made me realize how much i cherish and miss my faith. Getting down here and getting involved with FCA and Campus Crusade for Christ has made me remember what i found in my relationship with Christ so amazing. I am finally getting back to the place i want to be with God.
Not to mention i think i finally know what i want to do with my life. I made an appointment to meet with my advisor tomorrow and officially change my major from Music Education to Event Management. If everything goes according to plan I will be a student at the UCF Rosen College of Hospitality Management. I'm really excited, i'm finally excited about life.
I miss Justin. Its beggining to be unbearable. It's only been a little over a week and i feel like a piece of my heart has been ripped out of my body. I only have a week left...
I am falling apart...or at least thats how it feels..i don't have all the answers..i'm not sure of everything..i'm not perfect and i don't want to be. I just wish that i could get some support. and i know there are people that are backing me but it dosen't always feel that way. i just want someone to tell me to stick it out, let it go, i'm here to listen or talk, or you can do whatever you put your mind to..
i've pretty much spent the time from 12-8 crying my eyes out. I can't decide if it is actually from Grey's Anatomy or if thats just what i say it is..
I'm not sure if i actually said what i wanted to on here or not, but i don't really care. It's hard to think right now.....
i really like this song..
*How to Save a Life-The Fray*
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong (where did I go wrong), I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up (I would of stayed up) with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.
-Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy