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As if my life wasn't stressful enough, one of my closest friends... or at least I thought... has started sending me texts or IMs everyday about how much he hates me. Is he trying to push me over the edge? I was depressed and lonely in California. I came back to Illinois, chose the difficult path that would prevent me from going back to school for a longer time, not having money to do the things I like, and leaving my parent's house, to come back here to be back with my friends and sister again so I wouldn't waste away in Cali. I don't have that many close friends. I can count on one hand the number of people who I can still call close friends. Now I'm getting hate messages from one of them and I haven't even done anything! He's just taking out all his life's frustration on me and he doesn't have to deal with half the shit I do. He's in school, lives with his parents, and has two jobs. I can't pay my rent, I've only found one job so far but I"m not getting enough hours and my parents are 3000 fucking miles away! I'm crying right now. I haven't cried in a long time, the salt is hurting my eyes. I'm losing my cool. I've been dealing with all of this but it's getting to be too much... Merry god damn christmas and a happy new year, everybody. I'm totally boned.