Wow, it's been awhile.

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I don't know why I stopped journaling. I found it therapeutic but always came up with an excuse or had something "better" to do. I looked back at some old entries. All I can say is that I feel old. I think I finally feel like an adult. I got married, we had a kid, and now we have a house. I guess those are the three big ones as far as our society is concerned minus the career. That's right, I'm now looking for a job... again. I just don't understand how I've been a star employee only to succumb to a poor performance review. And it's just not a poor performance review. It is a backdated performance review. In my specific situation, I had a couple great months. But they raised the standards and applied the new standard to my two awesome months that are now absolute crap according to the new standards. I know it sounds like l'm bitchin' and feel I am entitled to something. But I think I speak for a lot of people in the same situation. We have degrees and struggling in jobs that have nothing to do with the profession we trained for. For a lot of us that's training that we paid for. On a related note, I won't lie. I will miss the free cable television.

At least I have a new band to keep me occupied. Our vocalist other project just got signed with a major British producer. If that pans out and drags The Niche along with it, we could be touring Europe. Freakin' Europe is on the horizon and I'm still sweating bullets about my job situation. I guess I would like to see something "safe" work out now. But I guess with the state of how things are in the world are right now, safe probably won't cut it. Well, time to lay down with my wife and pugs.