Sleep Log
Summary: About four hours. Approximately 1030 to about 1430. No melatonin or other chemical aids to sleeping today.
Reason for waking: Something happened upstairs setting the dogs off on a barking frenzy for what felt like twenty minutes.
Additional Description of sleep failure: Hunger, thirst, sinus-related distress, headache. Three different songs running through head for no good reason. In-laws walking around heavily upstairs; can't sleep inside tympani. Generalized anxiety, though I can't use that in the clinical sense, because I'm not qualified to assess that. Specific worries included:
Thoughts: Man, screw this crap. I'll be lucky to make it in safely to work, assuming I can drive anyway due to the snow. Good thing it's slow just this moment at work, or I'd be useless. If I get snowed in at work and have to pull some crapping 30 hour shift there, my sleep will be worse than normal, because ain't no way in Christ I'm going to be able to sleep at work if I can't sleep here. Screw it. I'm hungry and there's a mountain of laundry to do. Caffeine still works, so I'll do that I guess.
Reason for waking: Something happened upstairs setting the dogs off on a barking frenzy for what felt like twenty minutes.
Additional Description of sleep failure: Hunger, thirst, sinus-related distress, headache. Three different songs running through head for no good reason. In-laws walking around heavily upstairs; can't sleep inside tympani. Generalized anxiety, though I can't use that in the clinical sense, because I'm not qualified to assess that. Specific worries included:
- meta-sleep-failure anxiety
- logistics surrounding finding a GP to prescribe me a sleep aid
- likelihood of actual clinical depression and fallout surrounding that
- back-of-mind concern that depressive symptoms (including sleeping poorly) are all psycho-somatic, i.e., an attempt by some part of my brain to validate wrong-headed thinking about issues I won't get into here
- likelihood of medical insurance covering whatever mental health care I might/should/will probably seek
- likelihood of finding a mental health care professional I can actually work with
- shit-ton of laundry piled up
- mental checklist of things I need to take with me to work tonight, specifically re: blizzard preparedness
- whether Meredith and the kids will make it home safely from Breckenridge
- identity theft, credit rating repair, overall physical fitness
- zombies
Thoughts: Man, screw this crap. I'll be lucky to make it in safely to work, assuming I can drive anyway due to the snow. Good thing it's slow just this moment at work, or I'd be useless. If I get snowed in at work and have to pull some crapping 30 hour shift there, my sleep will be worse than normal, because ain't no way in Christ I'm going to be able to sleep at work if I can't sleep here. Screw it. I'm hungry and there's a mountain of laundry to do. Caffeine still works, so I'll do that I guess.