Ch-ch-ch-changes....
Life has changed a lot for me in recent months. I've been confronted with the biggest upheaval I've faced in my adult life, and I'm still coming to terms with how to handle it.
Divorce is a crazy thing. Now that I'm actually experiencing it, I don't understand how so many people have gone through it. It's an emotional, mental, legal, financial, and logistic nightmare. There is no upside to divorce itself, regardless of why you're going through it. Even if the outcome--being single--is positive in your circumstances, the method of getting there is always negative. Legal fees, contracts, custody arrangements...it's all horrific. I'm overwhelmed, exhausted, and more frustrated than I can possibly express.
But in spite of this, I'm remaining optimistic about the future. There's so much to be scared of, but I'm trying to focus on those things I have to be excited about. I'm discovering new interests, developing new relationships, and nourishing old ones. I'm trying to learn to focus more on myself than I ever did as a married woman--being single sort of forces this upon you. Suddenly I've got all this time for introspection, and sometimes I find myself surprised by what I discover. I'm doing things I never used to do, experiencing life in a new way, and sometimes even acting my age for a change. I'm enjoying aspects of my personality that I've never nurtured before, and I'm excited to see what else I will discover about myself.
I changed a lot during seven years of marriage. Some of those changes were good, and some of them I'm not so proud of. I walked away from things that were important to me, ignored aspects of myself that were convenient to forget. But it's never too late to correct such mistakes, and I'm determined to make myself better again. No matter how rough this situation may be, I have a bright future ahead of me, and a beautiful daughter to remind me of everything that's important in life. I want to be a better woman for myself, and a better mother for her. I feel a new determination in life, and it's granting me comfort when I need it most.
Divorce is a crazy thing. Now that I'm actually experiencing it, I don't understand how so many people have gone through it. It's an emotional, mental, legal, financial, and logistic nightmare. There is no upside to divorce itself, regardless of why you're going through it. Even if the outcome--being single--is positive in your circumstances, the method of getting there is always negative. Legal fees, contracts, custody arrangements...it's all horrific. I'm overwhelmed, exhausted, and more frustrated than I can possibly express.
But in spite of this, I'm remaining optimistic about the future. There's so much to be scared of, but I'm trying to focus on those things I have to be excited about. I'm discovering new interests, developing new relationships, and nourishing old ones. I'm trying to learn to focus more on myself than I ever did as a married woman--being single sort of forces this upon you. Suddenly I've got all this time for introspection, and sometimes I find myself surprised by what I discover. I'm doing things I never used to do, experiencing life in a new way, and sometimes even acting my age for a change. I'm enjoying aspects of my personality that I've never nurtured before, and I'm excited to see what else I will discover about myself.
I changed a lot during seven years of marriage. Some of those changes were good, and some of them I'm not so proud of. I walked away from things that were important to me, ignored aspects of myself that were convenient to forget. But it's never too late to correct such mistakes, and I'm determined to make myself better again. No matter how rough this situation may be, I have a bright future ahead of me, and a beautiful daughter to remind me of everything that's important in life. I want to be a better woman for myself, and a better mother for her. I feel a new determination in life, and it's granting me comfort when I need it most.