//medically speaking you're adorable...
So... I should update.
I went to c21 friday because the friday before, I had promised Lexi I would. And guess who never showed up. ...yeah. What a big gay. And to top things off, I was in no mood to be there in the first place. I was highly depressed (the quiet, refusing to talk kind). Casual depression. No specifics.
...so then Nathan, Stuart, Alex, scott(?), and some others were gonna go drinking. ...but it was a sausage fest, so I decided to walk home in ze rain. The last thing I need to do is get all quiet and sad, and creep out a bunch on men. heh.
...so yeah. Saturday I diched plans to go drinking with Danny and Tiff. Their idea was to have a nice, quiet, small gathering in the park. Samall meaning me, my brother, Danny, and Tiff. LE BORE. So I skipped that. But as it turns out they scrapped that idea and went to Dylan/Lauren's to drink with a shitload of people. ....but still, I wouldn't have wanted to go. I'm really .... moody lately. Depressed, and then fake-happy, and then angry that I can't be real-happy, and then back to sad. And I felt like a madman.
Whatever. :P
*sigh* Is it wrong that I wanna go to pride this year? ... I think that's sad. I think it's also sad that I'm getting pretty gay. URGH. But I guess... less gay than last year when i was actually in the parade. GAY. ugh. ...I'm like... .... scene'ing it up again. sick.
....I bought black hairdye. Let's hope "Starry Night/Bright black" means black and not blue-black. ....but before I use it, I gotta get a haircut 'cause my hair is so thick. ....I'm sure no one is reading this, so I can continue with the lame details. HA! I'm thinking of buying blonde hairdye and then after getting my haircut dying my hair blonde, and then doing something crazy with the black. I'd do black underneath, but that'd be hard... unless we like do the black with my hair up in a bun or something then do the blonde right away.... tempting to try, even though I KNOW it'd run later. heh. I dunno. If I don't think of anything, I'll just go through with pure black hair. LAME, but whatever, right. Change is good. My world needs drastic changes. As long as I get my hair cut I'll be happy. I dunno how though. ... *sigh* I hate going in to salons for actual haircuts. It's sooo fucking awkward.
...humbug. I wanna get this done before next weekend. We're having some sorta gathering at my grandparents. A biggie I think, 'cause we had to move our big bulky expensive BBQ grill thingy there. ....So yeah. ....yeah. I dunno what it's all about.
....ugh.
I miss having sweet starlight in my life.
That little twinkle of happiness that shows me there is light in the world.
L8R.
I went to c21 friday because the friday before, I had promised Lexi I would. And guess who never showed up. ...yeah. What a big gay. And to top things off, I was in no mood to be there in the first place. I was highly depressed (the quiet, refusing to talk kind). Casual depression. No specifics.
...so then Nathan, Stuart, Alex, scott(?), and some others were gonna go drinking. ...but it was a sausage fest, so I decided to walk home in ze rain. The last thing I need to do is get all quiet and sad, and creep out a bunch on men. heh.
...so yeah. Saturday I diched plans to go drinking with Danny and Tiff. Their idea was to have a nice, quiet, small gathering in the park. Samall meaning me, my brother, Danny, and Tiff. LE BORE. So I skipped that. But as it turns out they scrapped that idea and went to Dylan/Lauren's to drink with a shitload of people. ....but still, I wouldn't have wanted to go. I'm really .... moody lately. Depressed, and then fake-happy, and then angry that I can't be real-happy, and then back to sad. And I felt like a madman.
Whatever. :P
*sigh* Is it wrong that I wanna go to pride this year? ... I think that's sad. I think it's also sad that I'm getting pretty gay. URGH. But I guess... less gay than last year when i was actually in the parade. GAY. ugh. ...I'm like... .... scene'ing it up again. sick.
....I bought black hairdye. Let's hope "Starry Night/Bright black" means black and not blue-black. ....but before I use it, I gotta get a haircut 'cause my hair is so thick. ....I'm sure no one is reading this, so I can continue with the lame details. HA! I'm thinking of buying blonde hairdye and then after getting my haircut dying my hair blonde, and then doing something crazy with the black. I'd do black underneath, but that'd be hard... unless we like do the black with my hair up in a bun or something then do the blonde right away.... tempting to try, even though I KNOW it'd run later. heh. I dunno. If I don't think of anything, I'll just go through with pure black hair. LAME, but whatever, right. Change is good. My world needs drastic changes. As long as I get my hair cut I'll be happy. I dunno how though. ... *sigh* I hate going in to salons for actual haircuts. It's sooo fucking awkward.
...humbug. I wanna get this done before next weekend. We're having some sorta gathering at my grandparents. A biggie I think, 'cause we had to move our big bulky expensive BBQ grill thingy there. ....So yeah. ....yeah. I dunno what it's all about.
....ugh.
I miss having sweet starlight in my life.
That little twinkle of happiness that shows me there is light in the world.
L8R.