//my desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long...

[rapiddream]

So... Jon phones me tonight and leaves me a voicemail asking me to call him. So i went up to my room... and laid on my blanket named Jon... and held the phone for a while. Everyone knows I have a huge fear of the phone. Picking it up and dialing someone is scary, even if I know they want me to, or have told me to. But after a while, I headed back downstairs and went on my moms computer in her room 'cause my brother was watchign a movie on the other computer. I did it. Called him for my second time. He was drunk, and we talked for a bit but my mom was blabbing to me and so was the internet creepers on Stickam. Then he was like "I'll call you back later babee" and then later came around and he called my cell. Which is signal for 'call me back', so I called him back and we talked and it was all cute. All REALLY cute. I <3 his voice.... it's like someone else I know's telephone voice (mannurism-wise), but ...'raspier' and different... 'cause he's getting his voice back from a case of bronchitis or something. So we were talking, and then his sound cut out so he could hear me but I couldn't hear him and then he dialed me a song, which was AWESOME to do. And talked to me on aim as I continued to talk to him on the phone til I redialed him and we were talking and telus cut me off or something. ...and then... I called him back after 7minutes and he was asleep by then or something... so I left him a voicemail. Which was bad. I leave bad long stupid voicemails. But I'm sure he'll like it. :D

Enough of this and I might actually cure my phone phobia. Call it ... torture-treatment. lol

We text each other all the freaking time. He has texted me more than all the collective texts of everyone else I know put togeather. ...he's so awesome. I'm gonna start walking soon (inside joke). LOL

...<3. I feel happy. He makes me happy. I know it's silly. ...but... live for the now, and not for the then.

L8R.