May 12, 2012 04:03
Yay! I finally graduated! I'm a nurse! Now to just become a licensed nurse...
Things are progressing well. Grades will be finalized in two weeks and then the complete registration for the exam can finally be set into motion.
I want to take the exam on my birthday. People look at me strange when I say that but I think it would be a good gift to myself right? Also maybe I'll be luckier on my birthday..ha!
A nurse I used to work with sent me a card yesterday to congratulate me. I was thrilled and a bit choked up when I read it...
She was really my inspiration you know. I remember our conversations very well and she really helped me make the personal decision to pursue this career. Even still I remember her advice about this field and I think I'll remember it forever. It's been my mantra these past two years and I think it'll stay my mantra.
It's simple really.
No matter what, the patient always comes first.
On the outside it seems obvious but you know...in this field you can really become jaded. You're tired, you're picked on, you're belittled. All these things begin to tear you down. You can become cold.
When I hear that line I think about the simplicity of it but in that simplicity there's real wisdom.
You have to keep sight of your dreams. Your passions. The patient comes first.
The people I'm working with are definitely what has been driving me.
Also, I still believe nursing can be an art form.
When you care for others. When you grow and hone in your skills. You become a real instrument of healing. You can do much more then simply aid in the healing of wounds or of a disease. You can heal the person in a much deeper place. Nursing can be a form of love.
I think therein lies the art of nursing.
I'm not saying you can help everyone but...in those moments you can surely become a person's strength.
I think what I'm trying to say with all this, mostly to myself, is that I want to always remember this. I want to practice like this everyday. I want to keep an open mind and heart.
These last few weeks have been pretty rough for me. Tying up loose ends. Saying goodbye. I've lived this kind of life as a student for over two years. It feels strange...with all that I've been pretty down.
I was growing tired...I was probably on the road to becoming numb.
So that's why I wanted to write this. So I can go back and see this person. Remember her because she's the real Dani. The Dani I want to be. The one who has big dreams and a big heart.
I hope in a year I'll come back with even more knowledge and even more to offer this Dani. She's still a child in this new world. I want to nurture her.
Haha I probably sound weird right now.
On another note!
I want to learn bass! \(^.^)/
I've mostly just been messing with the metronome and Lexi's guitar. Playing the bass strings, getting coordination down with open chords.
I love it I love it I love it.
It revitalizes me truly.
I have a lot of things I want to do so I'll make another update with that stuff there...
I love you guys.,,,if you're reading this. I love you all to pieces!
I can't wait to see Twin! We're going to have a blast.
Dani