Just some things Nurse Dani is musing on~
The OMEGA pamphlet is spectacular, I find myself rather envious of the photographer(s) in this shoot, the various mediums and themes are visually stunning and beautifully intimate. Looking at this baby makes me want to spend the rest of winter shooting photos.
Apart of me is DYING to take a proper photography class. More and more I find myself sort of torn between two passions. The energy it takes to put aside my artistic drive to dedicate myself to nursing leaves me rather exhausted. When I do have free time I find myself a bit too tired and sort of desperate. I have a burning desire to create but somehow my intense drive to excel at my profession blunts my creativity.
I wonder if its possible to have several dreams. I used to think its possible but can one truly serve both? I think what I need is more energy to initiate.
I love helping patients. I love working in a hospital. I love the nonstop buzz, having a million things to do, not sitting, drinking, or even breathing for twelve hours. When I come home and my body is sore all over I feel like I've done something worthwhile. I know this is something I could be happy breaking my body for. Its also rather addictive. Nursing is a profession where one has to be cautious and yet have a flare of recklessness towards oneself. It fits me.
Photography is more like a lover. I can be a voyeur, I can share incredibly intimate thoughts, I can show you the brightest and darkest aspects of myself. I can even show you your happiest and darkest aspects if you let me shoot you. I can satisfy my fellow voyeurs, make one fantasize, dream, and long for memories one never thought they had. I can create moments for you and me. It allows me to love you and I love to love.
I want both.
Hmmm...on a lighter note I was looking for a video and I came upon this! Now the damn thing is stuck in my head, so I thought I'd torture you as well.
Click to viewIf you don't know its Saga-kun (bassist from Alice Nine) singing Tonori no totoro on ArigaTORA.