I'll miss you...
I’ll miss you.
That's all he could say. Other than “my cab’s here” and “yeap”.
If he couldn’t vocalize his feelings, then I wasn’t about to either.
Those blue eyes… I had to look away or he’d see the sadness and anger built up from him only telling me 48 hours ago he was leaving.
Sara?
Hm?
I’m leaving in two days for Massachusetts.
Wh-what?
4-week sabbatical. I’ll be teaching a seminar about the seasonal behaviors of the Walden Pond Swamp Mosquito.
Well, I’m certainly glad you told me so far in advance!
Ah - Sara -
No… don’t ‘Sara’ me. How long have you known about this?
Few weeks.
WEEKS?!
Yeah.
Gris - my turn to ‘not know what to do about this.’
I’ll miss you.
Look back to him, for the first time in my near ten years of knowing, working with, loving, Gil Grissom had tears in his eyes. A midnight blue made those watery eyes look… so… sad.
Then he turned and left. Just walked away.
My heart sank. I wanted to cry so badly, but tears show you’re weak… ah screw it.
Hiding my face behind the locker door, I let just a few tears fall from my eyes.
Why can’t he just say the little things. Do the little things. Why did he wait so long to tell me about leaving, then tell me in the same tone as if he were saying “419 near Henderson”? I could see the dark circles under his eyes…I knew he was burning out & needed a break, why couldn’t he just say “I need a break from work”? Would it have been so hard for him to say that he loves me just moments before he walked away for the next month? Why couldn’t he just…
A feather light touch on my neck, so light I thought I was dreaming. But reality struck when I turned and those blue eyes met mine for a split second, and then I was pulled into those arms in a hug so tight I thought he’d never let go.
Pulling away just a little, he cupped my face, looked into my eyes with a sadness I’d never seen.
Wiping my tears away with his thumbs, he spoke, “I’ll call you when I land,” he whispered, letting a lone tear fall from his eyes.
“I’ll miss you too.”
Nodding, he turned and walked away. Again. But this time I knew he meant it when he said I’ll miss you.