Rant
ok so when he says to me "im just going for a nap so i can do the night shift tonight" i thought oh thanks hun and let him nap for 2 hrs and so and then the night comes and i am still doing all the bloody night feeds with maybe and hr and halfs sleep in between and oh yes he wakes for the 5 am one long enough to put the bottle on to warm and wake ME to do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES i have longer off to look after baby YES it was my choice to have said child YES i have no problems with doing the same as wit ethan and doing pretty much all the night feeds while he is back at work because well he is working and im off. what i was HOPEING for was when i come home from hosp after what is basically major surgery with express orders to REST and take medication and heal and he is off for 4 weeks was maybe a little fucking help!! I have slept in the armchair for the first 2 nights home with zach because he would not settle in the moses basket tonight he slept in moses basket and was up every couple of hrs for a feed. yet IM the one up and down all bloody night making bottles and feeding. IM SUPPOSED TO BE GETTING REST!!!! HE'S FUCKING GOT THE FULL NIGHTS SLEEP THE FIRST 2 NIGHTS HOME AND THEN ALSO TONIGHT AFTER STANDING THERE AND SAYING I'LL DO THE NIGHT FEEDS TONIGHT SO YOU CAN SLEEP!!!!!!! i could cry.....in fact i am and trying to tell him this doesn't work because he says im laying in to him. i do love him to bits i really do but since th 10th i've not had more than 2 hrs straight sleep i can't turn in bed yet due to the surgery scar my chest hurts badly like i've been kicked in the diaphram and my back and shoulders hurt when i breathe. All i wanted was some help in the first couple of weeks home to heal, rest, sleep and then i would be fine looking after the kids for when he goes back. but at this rate im going to be ill, run down and quite possibly back in hosp with an infection