gah!!

[raphaelwyn]

i was really looking orward to this morning and was stunned but happy at the news the sonographer gave me and was excited at letting people know but then in the next couple of minutes it was taken away from me and in those few minutes i was overjoyed then devestated. I realise looking at it i went in to my scan expecting to have 1 kicking baby and i left with 1 kicking baby.......But it still hurts i know people mean well when they say look on the positive side you still have 1 and i know they are trying to help but right now i just wanna yell "but i should have 2!!"

But i will try and cope i will be fine in the end just right now i want to grieve just a little.