In another country
Well im in Germany right now visiting my girlfriend of a year and 4 months. I do have to say i like it here better. That probably is due to the fact that i dont speak the language. Im sure if i knew what people were saying about me Id hate it here as well. I will miss this place though.... Im definitely looking forward to going home though. Im glad i have plans for Christmas this year, my friend Reve is gonna come over and stuff. Were gonna try and be festive, make some veggie lasanga.. YUMMMMM Wish i could say I was looking forward to the actual spirit of Christmas but Im not. To me its just a day like any other. I wish I could be ahppy about anything but I cant seem to. Maybe Im just an ungrateful bastard, but its hard for me to be ahppy about anything. Ive felt this way ever since my dad died. He was really the only person I could talk to. Please dont get the impression that my mom is shit or something. Shes one of the most amazing people I know, its just that she can be quite caustic at times, and I am as well which is quite hard. She is great though. Im really looking forward to this welcome home party! I definitely want my friend Marko there. Weve been friends since we were 8 years old and he means the world to me. Plus Im sure the other usual people will be there. Im happy my friend Nicole is coming! Shes bringing her shy boyfriend which is cool. Gotta try and make him feel as welcome as possible. Well that is all for tonight I think. The girlfriend is tossing and turning, undoubtably due to my endless typing. Goodnight all!