Life in greality
First a poem, then an update
A city full of content citizens is somehow depressing
too many smiling faces fill the streets
Though the people say they hate it,
they never move
a mediocre life also means security
Am I the only one filled with desperation?
Is my bed the only one that holds a cold loneliness
So powerful it could break this boys spirit
the desire for escape envelopes my soul
the exit light is burnt out
though I know where it would direct me
The only way to get out is to give up
and have everyone view you as a disappointment
I know you want to help me
but do you have a solution?
regardless of location I remain alone
surrounded by people but lost in the mob
I have been alone all my life
why should the present hold more hope than the past?
I was content before, but this is my breaking point
my last chance before I dangle in the wind
Asphyxiated by dreams that will never come true
True justice has given me this fate
to look into a mirror and be consumed with disgust
Years go by, but nothing changes
only the faces as they walk by
I wrote that like five minutes. Greeley still sucks, but what is new? I have negative money, no job, no good friends...i feel like Harvey Pekar once again, or maybe more like the Elephant man. That is one hell of a play. Anyhow...yeah I have been totally crushing on this girl from cleveland but she has a boyfriend there. God, I fucking like her so much however if I tell her that I could fuck up the friendship that we do have and blow all future chances. I am at a crossroads. I think I will just get the feelings out there just for my own benefit. But yeah.
Ugly beings capable of love earn only hate.
Truer words I have never written.
Bye.
A city full of content citizens is somehow depressing
too many smiling faces fill the streets
Though the people say they hate it,
they never move
a mediocre life also means security
Am I the only one filled with desperation?
Is my bed the only one that holds a cold loneliness
So powerful it could break this boys spirit
the desire for escape envelopes my soul
the exit light is burnt out
though I know where it would direct me
The only way to get out is to give up
and have everyone view you as a disappointment
I know you want to help me
but do you have a solution?
regardless of location I remain alone
surrounded by people but lost in the mob
I have been alone all my life
why should the present hold more hope than the past?
I was content before, but this is my breaking point
my last chance before I dangle in the wind
Asphyxiated by dreams that will never come true
True justice has given me this fate
to look into a mirror and be consumed with disgust
Years go by, but nothing changes
only the faces as they walk by
I wrote that like five minutes. Greeley still sucks, but what is new? I have negative money, no job, no good friends...i feel like Harvey Pekar once again, or maybe more like the Elephant man. That is one hell of a play. Anyhow...yeah I have been totally crushing on this girl from cleveland but she has a boyfriend there. God, I fucking like her so much however if I tell her that I could fuck up the friendship that we do have and blow all future chances. I am at a crossroads. I think I will just get the feelings out there just for my own benefit. But yeah.
Ugly beings capable of love earn only hate.
Truer words I have never written.
Bye.