okay, time to not...forget my friends page exists and reply to more things. rambling words for words/in order.
"Everyone, and I meen EVERYONE is probably a bit crazy. You aint mentaly ill till such point in time as the crazy starts to fuck up what most people consider "normal life"."
This is...actually a really good extension to how people usually say "everyone's a little bit crazy" as a brushoff. Or much more accurate, anyway.
Your boss was...a colossal fucking asshole. The way so many people react to requests for accommodations just...infuriates me overall. lol let's ignore that/make it worse. oh fine if you MAKE me. now I'll pick at you for daring to ask for the thing. then complain you're not doing things because you're getting picked at. YOUR FAULT. etc.
that would...have made me collapse pretty damned fast.
and I know the I used to be able to go places feeling far too well. some of mine breaking was set off by...stuff I'm not saying publicly, some I don't even know.
I swear, everyone else seems to get insomnia with brain fuckery and pain (no, no, "it'll help you sleep" WAS NOT A BONUS with that attempt at tricyclic antidepressants for pain), but I sleep for fucking ever and lately some days I only maintain awake strung out on caffeine (going back to that is not a good sign, but I...can't...awake). IT WOULD BE USEFUL if I could share chunks of sleep with everyone who can't, less insomnia and less fatigue all round. get on that, universe. /tries to shove some through the internet/
(...I think several days this week I've slept about what you did in a week total...and woken up tired every time. fucking brains. (edit) and upon further thought that sounds awful of me to brind up and I'm sorry. editing it out seemed bad too, though...)
"the autisim is not so much the problem, as is that all of the mechanisims i use to deal with autisim rely on a semi-intact brain."
...actually. actually that. probably is a lot of my fail too. autistic burnout from both too long faking it and trying to fake it at all when everything else fucking broke. like trying to do anything with poor Luke had gotten with 300+ days uptime (...I was being stubborn with uprecords okay) and not enough RAM when two things would fight over it and clog the swap file up too. click on anything, HORK LAG LAG LAG HELP ME. all these things were things that'd normally run, but trying to run them like that? bad idea.
now can brains please gain the ability to reboot properly
(sorry for analogy rambling. it's. how I talk about things sometimes.)
and trying to charge you after being shitty and then throwing you out...? what the fuck.
AND POKEMON
I figured 6v6 would be either splatter kids and feel bad or way too serious, I'll probably stay away from it other than maybe playing about with making things designed to troll Smogon standard sets for a laugh. I use Smogon as a general where is it useful to stick EVs so I don't waffle forever/what moves are generally useful reference but beyond that...I do what I want. And breed for my own shiny/IVs/etc. Maybe one of these days I'll actually throw together a Sunny Day themed shiny team and leave people wondering at the names (obscure anime references, pretty much, though you'd spot the Jumpluff :p). oh noes but Sandstorm is better/Stealth Rock blah blah SCREW YOU I LIKE FIRE and...a couple grass types and maybe a Porygon or Luxray...
I totally should poke double battles, though. I'm terrible at them but they're fun in the battle tower.
(I'm two gyms into Ruby and already having way too much fun with the Wonder Trade. I wish more people nicknamed things, though.)
Glad to hear the stuff about parents stuff being...less awful, seriously.
"Everyone, and I meen EVERYONE is probably a bit crazy.
You aint mentaly ill till such point in time as the crazy starts to fuck up what most people consider "normal life"."
This is...actually a really good extension to how people usually say "everyone's a little bit crazy" as a brushoff. Or much more accurate, anyway.
Your boss was...a colossal fucking asshole. The way so many people react to requests for accommodations just...infuriates me overall. lol let's ignore that/make it worse. oh fine if you MAKE me. now I'll pick at you for daring to ask for the thing. then complain you're not doing things because you're getting picked at. YOUR FAULT. etc.
that would...have made me collapse pretty damned fast.
and I know the I used to be able to go places feeling far too well. some of mine breaking was set off by...stuff I'm not saying publicly, some I don't even know.
I swear, everyone else seems to get insomnia with brain fuckery and pain (no, no, "it'll help you sleep" WAS NOT A BONUS with that attempt at tricyclic antidepressants for pain), but I sleep for fucking ever and lately some days I only maintain awake strung out on caffeine (going back to that is not a good sign, but I...can't...awake). IT WOULD BE USEFUL if I could share chunks of sleep with everyone who can't, less insomnia and less fatigue all round. get on that, universe. /tries to shove some through the internet/
(...I think several days this week I've slept about what you did in a week total...and woken up tired every time. fucking brains. (edit) and upon further thought that sounds awful of me to brind up and I'm sorry. editing it out seemed bad too, though...)
"the autisim is not so much the problem, as is that all of the mechanisims i use to deal with autisim rely on a semi-intact brain."
...actually. actually that. probably is a lot of my fail too. autistic burnout from both too long faking it and trying to fake it at all when everything else fucking broke. like trying to do anything with poor Luke had gotten with 300+ days uptime (...I was being stubborn with uprecords okay) and not enough RAM when two things would fight over it and clog the swap file up too. click on anything, HORK LAG LAG LAG HELP ME. all these things were things that'd normally run, but trying to run them like that? bad idea.
now can brains please gain the ability to reboot properly
(sorry for analogy rambling. it's. how I talk about things sometimes.)
and trying to charge you after being shitty and then throwing you out...? what the fuck.
AND POKEMON
I figured 6v6 would be either splatter kids and feel bad or way too serious, I'll probably stay away from it other than maybe playing about with making things designed to troll Smogon standard sets for a laugh. I use Smogon as a general where is it useful to stick EVs so I don't waffle forever/what moves are generally useful reference but beyond that...I do what I want. And breed for my own shiny/IVs/etc. Maybe one of these days I'll actually throw together a Sunny Day themed shiny team and leave people wondering at the names (obscure anime references, pretty much, though you'd spot the Jumpluff :p). oh noes but Sandstorm is better/Stealth Rock blah blah SCREW YOU I LIKE FIRE and...a couple grass types and maybe a Porygon or Luxray...
I totally should poke double battles, though. I'm terrible at them but they're fun in the battle tower.
(I'm two gyms into Ruby and already having way too much fun with the Wonder Trade. I wish more people nicknamed things, though.)
Glad to hear the stuff about parents stuff being...less awful, seriously.
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