Everything went wrong.

[rankofhands]

His decline of my request sent my flying into an orgasm of tears. It wasn't him being so tired and weary that made me cry, it was everything that had bottled up inside of me that day. Everything that had gone wrong just seemed to come out in a completely discombobulated mess of words and emotions last night as he was lying there, trying to go to

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[bentandroid]

the cursor is blinking and i'm trying to think of how to say what i want to say but instead i'm typing to keep it from blinking...
it's blinking again...
alright, (blink blink blink) well, (blink blink blink, type type type, backspaceeeeeeeee, blink blink)

i may not accurately understand exactly how things went down for you, but "this", "this" being the emotion that i'm getting to describe you from your writing, is how i end up feeling so incredibly often i cant even count how many times in the past two months, in the past two weeks even, christ, even in the past year that i've felt like "this".

without coladapins.

so many times that i've confused him to no end.... (blink blink) CRAP. i just want to talk face to face with you, since i'll have been able to get is a hug every other week. i miss you, and i feel like a stranger.

call me sometime. my cellphone is always on, but i have lousy reception, so leave a damn hell message and i'll fucking call you back.

(i love you. but isn't that obvious?)
-Ananda

[rankofhands]

I miss and love you.

[sofuckingtragic]

i have a love/hate relationship with you and your journal. i love it because it's usually the best piece of literature i read all day. i hate it because after entries like this, my heart sinks to my stomach and i feel a degree of the emotion you're writing about. you might be too good.

anyway, <3.

[rankofhands]

well then my deepest apoplogies for causing you to experience anything close to the anixety I've been feeling after this drug. Noooo more coladapins for me.

[nicwhite86]

Whats a coldapin? Please enlighten the Australian.

Anyway, hope things start looking up soon *hugs*

[rankofhands]

it's a pill. you put it up your nose and it makes you feel... wobbly.

[nicwhite86]

whats it for? that doesnt sound too good o_O

[rankofhands]

it's for people who have trouble sleeping. but some badass people like us like to do them because of the wobbliness.

[nicwhite86]

Oh and I added you ages ago. can you add me back? :)