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what a shitty day...my god...i hope you all dont mind but since the select few people i talk too are not around too talk too. im gonna use my online journal too vent....
first off, let me state that i would like too know when school shopping became so hard? why cant i ever find good shirts? lol...
now this is a bit of a rant about family...so..whatev...
i miss my dad...alot.he died when i was four if you didnt know, ive gotten used too not having him around and all...but latly i just really wish i had a dad. whenever i hear people talking about their fathers i wish i could join in without killing the whole convo... "oh! so me and my dad went too the zoo yesterday!" "oh. my dad died when i was four" "oh...nevermind". i mean...im not saying that too make them feel bad or anything...in fact...i love hearing storys about my friends and their fathers, just so i can hear what its like too have a dad. id even like a dad too get mad at...iono...i just want my daddy back...
i miss my cousins...i mean...i get too see them and everything..but, lets start with george, george has changed soooo much..i cant even sit and talk too him anymore. all he wants too do is get high. i mean shit...he wants too start a band? but he doesnt have the money too buy a drumset because he spends 400 dollars in three days on meth? wtf? then theres my cousin jamie...jamie i can still talk too but im so so soooo worried about...im worried about my whole family...
i miss the days when school shopping made you happy...
i missed talking too my friends today
i miss the good ol'days
i miss going to their house every morning too catch the bus with him
i miss playing under the stairs
i miss everything
im not as sad as you think, im upset yes. but i more pissed off then anything. and im worried about myself...really REALLY worried.
first off, let me state that i would like too know when school shopping became so hard? why cant i ever find good shirts? lol...
now this is a bit of a rant about family...so..whatev...
i miss my dad...alot.he died when i was four if you didnt know, ive gotten used too not having him around and all...but latly i just really wish i had a dad. whenever i hear people talking about their fathers i wish i could join in without killing the whole convo... "oh! so me and my dad went too the zoo yesterday!" "oh. my dad died when i was four" "oh...nevermind". i mean...im not saying that too make them feel bad or anything...in fact...i love hearing storys about my friends and their fathers, just so i can hear what its like too have a dad. id even like a dad too get mad at...iono...i just want my daddy back...
i miss my cousins...i mean...i get too see them and everything..but, lets start with george, george has changed soooo much..i cant even sit and talk too him anymore. all he wants too do is get high. i mean shit...he wants too start a band? but he doesnt have the money too buy a drumset because he spends 400 dollars in three days on meth? wtf? then theres my cousin jamie...jamie i can still talk too but im so so soooo worried about...im worried about my whole family...
i miss the days when school shopping made you happy...
i missed talking too my friends today
i miss the good ol'days
i miss going to their house every morning too catch the bus with him
i miss playing under the stairs
i miss everything
im not as sad as you think, im upset yes. but i more pissed off then anything. and im worried about myself...really REALLY worried.