I Was So Scared...
As I've posted on here before, my mom and I...don't have the best relationship. She's changed a lot, unfortunately for the worse, and it's really sad. She still can and does do nice things for me, but there's still a rift between us.
Well, Monday we got into an argument, which is becoming a normal occurrence. I'd forgotten to rinse off the dishes before putting them in the dishwasher, which is something I should remember, but sometimes don't. I'll admit that.
Mom starts screaming at me to get out of the house, and I try to calm her down. She starts pinching my arms, and I bat her hands away, again simply trying to get her to calm down.
That's when she starts strangling me. I manage to get her hands away from my throat(thank God I'm stronger than her) , then I SHOVE her out of the way and run to my room, slamming the door in her face, nearly hyperventilating from terror. Mom's on the other side of the door, crying as she tries to apologize. She made my Dad come home from work early.
Later she tells me "I looked it up, and apparently people with MS can be prone to violent mood swings." Which, you know, completely justifies her TRYING TO STRANGLE HER OWN DAUGHTER OVER DIRTY DISHES.
I'm really worried now. What if I set her off again? I've got nowhere to go-I don't know if my grandparents would believe me, and I've got no friends that live nearby. My brother's out, because there's no place for me to sleep.
I desperately need to find a job and an apartment, in that order. Then maybe I can finally be free of the person my mother has become.
Well, Monday we got into an argument, which is becoming a normal occurrence. I'd forgotten to rinse off the dishes before putting them in the dishwasher, which is something I should remember, but sometimes don't. I'll admit that.
Mom starts screaming at me to get out of the house, and I try to calm her down. She starts pinching my arms, and I bat her hands away, again simply trying to get her to calm down.
That's when she starts strangling me. I manage to get her hands away from my throat(thank God I'm stronger than her) , then I SHOVE her out of the way and run to my room, slamming the door in her face, nearly hyperventilating from terror. Mom's on the other side of the door, crying as she tries to apologize. She made my Dad come home from work early.
Later she tells me "I looked it up, and apparently people with MS can be prone to violent mood swings." Which, you know, completely justifies her TRYING TO STRANGLE HER OWN DAUGHTER OVER DIRTY DISHES.
I'm really worried now. What if I set her off again? I've got nowhere to go-I don't know if my grandparents would believe me, and I've got no friends that live nearby. My brother's out, because there's no place for me to sleep.
I desperately need to find a job and an apartment, in that order. Then maybe I can finally be free of the person my mother has become.