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She's dead.
She died a week ago, and was cremated.
No one told me. No one bothered to mention it to me. I heard when Shan're was talking about it. They all seem to act as if I lost nothing, like I'm some monster who doesn't have a heart or feel anything.
Even if she walked away from me, even if she hated me, I at least deserved to be able to say goodbye.
I remember when we first met. It was in Icecrown, and she was watching me at the Tournament. We would talk a little bit, every other day or so... Then we talked more, then we touched. And then after days of teasing and playing I took her to Sholazar and together we spent a wonderful night out under the stars.
I remember that was when I finally cut ties with Adrah. She was there for me, and we were enjoying each other's company so well. I wanted to be there for her, because she drank so much sometimes, and I tried to stop her from doing that to herself. I was there for her, she was there for me. During Noblegarden I gave her flowers, and one night she wore a beautiful dress, just for me.
I gave her my medal, so that she'd always have a part of me with her. She gave me in return, a small dragonhawk pendant, silver on red. I wore it proudly. When she found her paladin, in the Avalanche, I was there for her. I even got Jeria out to Thunder Bluff to talk to her.
That's when I admitted I loved her.
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So much.. When we fixed that rocket, when I asked her to marry me... The ceremony... She was so beautiful that day, and the days after. If I had done different, if i hadn't joked so much about her being so mothering and about children, if I had.. Done different. Maybe she would still be here.
I will miss her. Her smile, her voice, her attitude, her love. She was so many things.
Ceirin. My little huntress. You'll always have a place in my heart. I won't ever forget you. I don't ever want to. I can't do much for you, except leave you a drink. And.. I buried your ring there, too. No one saw though. They'd only call me a fool if they did. Forgive me for what I did to you.
(( The page is spotted a few times, where water has fallen on the paper and smudged some of the ink. ))
She's dead.
She died a week ago, and was cremated.
No one told me. No one bothered to mention it to me. I heard when Shan're was talking about it. They all seem to act as if I lost nothing, like I'm some monster who doesn't have a heart or feel anything.
Even if she walked away from me, even if she hated me, I at least deserved to be able to say goodbye.
I remember when we first met. It was in Icecrown, and she was watching me at the Tournament. We would talk a little bit, every other day or so... Then we talked more, then we touched. And then after days of teasing and playing I took her to Sholazar and together we spent a wonderful night out under the stars.
I remember that was when I finally cut ties with Adrah. She was there for me, and we were enjoying each other's company so well. I wanted to be there for her, because she drank so much sometimes, and I tried to stop her from doing that to herself. I was there for her, she was there for me. During Noblegarden I gave her flowers, and one night she wore a beautiful dress, just for me.
I gave her my medal, so that she'd always have a part of me with her. She gave me in return, a small dragonhawk pendant, silver on red. I wore it proudly. When she found her paladin, in the Avalanche, I was there for her. I even got Jeria out to Thunder Bluff to talk to her.
That's when I admitted I loved her.
(( There is a jumble of scribbles here. ))
So much.. When we fixed that rocket, when I asked her to marry me... The ceremony... She was so beautiful that day, and the days after. If I had done different, if i hadn't joked so much about her being so mothering and about children, if I had.. Done different. Maybe she would still be here.
I will miss her. Her smile, her voice, her attitude, her love. She was so many things.
Ceirin. My little huntress. You'll always have a place in my heart. I won't ever forget you. I don't ever want to. I can't do much for you, except leave you a drink. And.. I buried your ring there, too. No one saw though. They'd only call me a fool if they did. Forgive me for what I did to you.
(( The page is spotted a few times, where water has fallen on the paper and smudged some of the ink. ))