Addictions
I think the uncontrolled/uncontrol-able need to something (especially if you know better) is an addiction. I have two, well, two major ones.
The first has to do with eating and the appeal that some foods have even though I should avoid them. I have big problems processing grape juice, for example. But I love the taste of grape juice, so I drink some from time to time for the taste and just deal with the reaction later (this happens quarterly, so I've months to recover). Same goes for onion, I like the taste but within 30 minutes I'm going to be needing a bathroom.
The second addiction is book related. Sometimes, I get caught up reading an author and I keep gathering all of his/her books even if I hate them. I recently (two days ago) bought a book, hardback, at the Waldenbooks even though I knew I was going to hate it. I just had to read it, see what would happen, see if the book was as bad as I had anticipated. It was- honestly, it was even worse than I had anticipated. I've even met the author and knew I'd hate the book (there are books with co-writers that are great, his solo works are what I detest). Why do I keep reading them? Why did I get all the Tepper books in the "True Game" series, for example, when I hated them all? What compells me to read Stasheff's never ending "Wizard inspire of himself" tomes even though the quality ended after the first few books?
I know that there are temporary cures. I'm confused as to how they are obtained. How did I break the Piers Anthony curse so that the Xanth books no long rate a glance? Why can I bypass Anne McCaffrey without more than a quick read of the back cover?
The first has to do with eating and the appeal that some foods have even though I should avoid them. I have big problems processing grape juice, for example. But I love the taste of grape juice, so I drink some from time to time for the taste and just deal with the reaction later (this happens quarterly, so I've months to recover). Same goes for onion, I like the taste but within 30 minutes I'm going to be needing a bathroom.
The second addiction is book related. Sometimes, I get caught up reading an author and I keep gathering all of his/her books even if I hate them. I recently (two days ago) bought a book, hardback, at the Waldenbooks even though I knew I was going to hate it. I just had to read it, see what would happen, see if the book was as bad as I had anticipated. It was- honestly, it was even worse than I had anticipated. I've even met the author and knew I'd hate the book (there are books with co-writers that are great, his solo works are what I detest). Why do I keep reading them? Why did I get all the Tepper books in the "True Game" series, for example, when I hated them all? What compells me to read Stasheff's never ending "Wizard inspire of himself" tomes even though the quality ended after the first few books?
I know that there are temporary cures. I'm confused as to how they are obtained. How did I break the Piers Anthony curse so that the Xanth books no long rate a glance? Why can I bypass Anne McCaffrey without more than a quick read of the back cover?