Hmmm
I've been having a real hard time with a lot of stuff lately. I really cant figure out why either, because in theory things arent really all that bad. I mean, I have a job, a house to live in, food on my table and clothes on my back. But it just seems like sometimes i let things that shouldnt bother me just eat me up. I mean wether its friends or my job or anything else.... sometimes I just feel like i break down and i dont know what to do. And the really awful part is that i can sit here and tell myself that its really not a big deal and it shouldnt bother me, but then i let bother me anyways.... soemtimes i just feel like i dont have any control. I keep telling myself that im going to be happy, im going to make myself be happy but it just doesnt work and i dont know what will. And now i feel like a whinely lil bastard. I'm sorry...