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I'm not really sure where im going to be going with this, so bear with me cause im sure it will end up somewhere. I've been thinking a lot about my job, what i want to do, where i wanna go and all the like. And i've come to the conclusion that i dont know. I've been talking to my dad alot lately and he and my mom really want me to come home and go to work at Georgia Tech. And it doesnt seem like a bad idea, but i almost feel like they are pressuring me into the decision. And then when i try to tell them im not going to do it right now i can just hear the disapointment in their voices and that is the worst feeling ever. Because i love my family and i do miss seeeing them as much as i use to and i want to be around them, but right now i feel like their is something else i should or need to be doing. Which leads to the next point, of why the hell am i still in valdosta? I really want to get a job workin at Lowndes Co. that is like the ultinmate goal of anyone working in law enforcement in south georgia. Even if it isnt everyone elses goal its mine. And i want to get it. But no only that their are some things in this town that im not ready to say goodbye to yet. I still feel like their are some things i havent done and i want to atleast try to do them before i leave. Some of them may not be possible or may be out of my control, but im going to do my best to get their. And i would like to thank all of my friends (yes the two of you who read this) for everything. You mean the world to me and i think you know jsut how special you are.