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Why did I have a little freak out just then.......Why did that bother me......
Long ass day full of screw ups and frustrations. It wasnt my day. So much running around. Accidents and the like. Some days my walls crumble too well and I put on a face to show the world something else.
Hearts sinking and bad feelings cant be avoided with fears......
Why can't people just leave well enough alone......I always get a bad feeling when things are brought up or people are around. My gut has always been my guide and has never steered me wrong. I just hope this time it is......
I dont like shutting myself off from the world.....Shutting all nerves and feelings and feeling off. I wish today could have ended differently. Just go numb. Time to just go numb to everything. Put on a mindless movie to occupy the mind and shut off all feeling both mentally and physically.
Anyway, Mike will be getting here soon. That will give me a smile.
Long ass day full of screw ups and frustrations. It wasnt my day. So much running around. Accidents and the like. Some days my walls crumble too well and I put on a face to show the world something else.
Hearts sinking and bad feelings cant be avoided with fears......
Why can't people just leave well enough alone......I always get a bad feeling when things are brought up or people are around. My gut has always been my guide and has never steered me wrong. I just hope this time it is......
I dont like shutting myself off from the world.....Shutting all nerves and feelings and feeling off. I wish today could have ended differently. Just go numb. Time to just go numb to everything. Put on a mindless movie to occupy the mind and shut off all feeling both mentally and physically.
Anyway, Mike will be getting here soon. That will give me a smile.