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[randyorton0988]

hey everyone! man i am babysitting my lil cousin brandon right now, and i just dont know how to handle babies. but, urrg, i cant stop thinking about kevin. every minute of the day is like, kevin this and kevin that. i am always thinking and talking about him it is unbelievable. i honestly think that i love him, as weird as it may sound, but i think i do. can i love somebody that i cant have? could he love me? why cant i get him out of my mind? i get butterflies and goosebumps whenever i see him or even think about him. hmmmm............. the only thing is that he has a gf, so yea. and i think honestly that he has feelings for me but, he kind of cant do anything about it. some people ask me if it is just because he is hot. no, it is much more than that. he is the only person besides my mom that i could talk to about anything. he was there holding me when i needed to be held, he helped me through the death of my cousin and my grandpa, and he has a sense of humor that just i cant get over. i look at his picture everyday. last night, i was looking at it for like an hour, just thinking about what could happen but most likely wont. should i just give up, and say goodbye? probably, but i cant.

my aunt dawn gets so mad at me whenever i go to kevins house. she knows that i like him, and she is worried that something might happen. well she needs to get over it. she always gives me a huge lecture whenever i come home from his house, and says that she doesnt want me hurt and that she dont think it is right that i go to his house and he has a gf. well, we are best friends, so yea, i am gonna go to his house. so she needs to get a life.