I need a makeover.

[randy839]

You know when you're doing something so totally wrong in your life, but you can't change it.
I'm dealing with that right now.
I have a fault.
A big one.
I hate it.
I despise it.
I really can't change it.
Even if I tried, I know it would just come back to haunt me.
I want to change it.
I want to be an entirely different person, right now.
Everything.
Every little thing.
I wish that were possible.
I wish that I weren't me anymore.

Maybe I'll go to college an entirely different person.
But then the old me would probably shine through again and I'd be in the same position I am right now.

I hate this.
I need to cry.
But that doesn't help. hah. It would just make things worse.

ugh.