like a grub worm in a turtle neck
Yah... so.. what' sup..
no tmy mood right now..
I just got off AIM talking to my cuz, Ed Fenton, and we talked for about an hour...so.. yah it was good .. just we were talkin bout some deep stuff.. like church and why i hate it soo much and hate God and hate people that go/ used to go there/ andtodd and omg...it was good to vent...and figure out that I just let bitterness get in the way... i dunno know if that's gonna solve my prob. though.. it doesn't feel like i'm in the mood to jump out there and teach this sunday school class this sunday yet...OMG.. THIS SUNDAY... count 'em... i have 5-6 more flippin days... o well...just let it be...
NEWAYZ... when I was in my pissy moods to start out with like... in October...around my b-day (october 24 by the way) I wrote out how i felt n song/poem form... here's one.. that i wrote on my b-day...or somewhere around there...
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There's a feeling
of hatred in this world,
When everything you want is stripped away,
When you have no control at all,
You don't know why you live each day,
It appears to be that you've messed up,
But what else could you have done,
When the world reach out its hand,
And grabbed and killed the sun,
CHORUS
This feeling is deep in me,
It's killing all of my being,
Does this have to happen to me,
Can't you see I'm dying,
Won't you save me,
There's a feeling of dissappointment,
When at everything you try you fail,
When you make so many mistakes,
Out of life you quickly want to bail,
It appears to be that you've given up,
But what else could you have done,
When everything flies above your head,
You don't receive a prize not even one,
REPEAT CHORUS...
so what'dya think?
hmm. ya.. whatever...I fill like eating some good ol' pb and j...and i can feel it.. tiz gonna be another sleepless night..(for those who don't knwo which is all of you... I am starting to become an insomniac for some wierd reason unknown to me...I just can't sleep.. i just lie in bed and never fall asleep.. it's the wierdest feeling in the world.. i mean you want to .. and try to.. and take benedryl.. but NOPE NO SLEEP...)
well... i don't have n e thing else to do right this moment , but I'll just go watch Fresh PRince for right now...latez
no tmy mood right now..
I just got off AIM talking to my cuz, Ed Fenton, and we talked for about an hour...so.. yah it was good .. just we were talkin bout some deep stuff.. like church and why i hate it soo much and hate God and hate people that go/ used to go there/ andtodd and omg...it was good to vent...and figure out that I just let bitterness get in the way... i dunno know if that's gonna solve my prob. though.. it doesn't feel like i'm in the mood to jump out there and teach this sunday school class this sunday yet...OMG.. THIS SUNDAY... count 'em... i have 5-6 more flippin days... o well...just let it be...
NEWAYZ... when I was in my pissy moods to start out with like... in October...around my b-day (october 24 by the way) I wrote out how i felt n song/poem form... here's one.. that i wrote on my b-day...or somewhere around there...
NO TITLE
There's a feeling
of hatred in this world,
When everything you want is stripped away,
When you have no control at all,
You don't know why you live each day,
It appears to be that you've messed up,
But what else could you have done,
When the world reach out its hand,
And grabbed and killed the sun,
CHORUS
This feeling is deep in me,
It's killing all of my being,
Does this have to happen to me,
Can't you see I'm dying,
Won't you save me,
There's a feeling of dissappointment,
When at everything you try you fail,
When you make so many mistakes,
Out of life you quickly want to bail,
It appears to be that you've given up,
But what else could you have done,
When everything flies above your head,
You don't receive a prize not even one,
REPEAT CHORUS...
so what'dya think?
hmm. ya.. whatever...I fill like eating some good ol' pb and j...and i can feel it.. tiz gonna be another sleepless night..(for those who don't knwo which is all of you... I am starting to become an insomniac for some wierd reason unknown to me...I just can't sleep.. i just lie in bed and never fall asleep.. it's the wierdest feeling in the world.. i mean you want to .. and try to.. and take benedryl.. but NOPE NO SLEEP...)
well... i don't have n e thing else to do right this moment , but I'll just go watch Fresh PRince for right now...latez