Aug 12, 2009 21:28
The wee man has windy tummys. It's distressing for the entire family at the moment. Mamma is only just really realising how bad he is and how stressed i am being left with him alone all day when he's screaming his wee heart out.
He goes purple, he's crying that hard. His wee poor voice breaks and it's horrible.
His wee poo's go from putty-like to thick soup to orange water and back in a matter of days at a time. I'm at a loss.
Keep telling the health visitors and family members and the doctors that i can't cope. I'm not coping... me and Dani broke up and got back together the other night.
When we faught, we actually faught. It was horrible. I ruined the bedroom wall by throwing a full mug of tea round her... so now on top of being sore and sad and crying and NOT COPING i also have to repaint the bedroom at some point.
If he ever settles down and stops being sore and gets into a routine, and if i ever stop feeling guilty and hopeless and helpless and like i'm doing everything wrong.
I'm just trying to be a good mum... doesnt seem to me like i'm coping well enough to be that either.
:'(