25 (more) things
This is going to get posted as a facebook note when I get home, I'm just at work so I can only post things on here.
1. I am almost never sick, I get a small cold once or twice a year and remain in great health otherwise. It's a little weird because everyone else in my immediate family is often sick. I got lucky.
2. I have a really short attention span and some of my favorite albums are really long(low level owl vol. 1 and 2, colors, lifted, etc.) and so I rarely get to listen to them as a whole and it sucks because they are great albums.
3. I have no clue what I'm going to be doing in a year and I don't really have any huge ambitions like dreaming to be a doctor or something. I want to a small to mid level guy just about anywhere. 33-40k should be fine for the way I want to live my life, family included.
4. I don't see my family as often as I did before I had this job but I'm typically very close and involved with them, my parents especially. I tell my parents everything they want to know and I'm very lucky that they raised me as well as they did.
5. I had a lot of trouble growing up. it started after 5th grade, my dog and my godmother both died in the same year and I had no idea how to take it. 6th through 9th grade are both a blur for me, I was in and out of mental institutions, juvi meetings and schools. Believe it or not, I used to pretty much hit everyone I saw. I have no idea how to deal with death and its just another thing on my list of things to worry about everyday.
6. I'm probably the most depressed and depressing person you'll ever meet. however, I'll never tell you something I don't believe in 100% and I don't do it as an act. I love life, I love living it and even though I've done some stupid things with stupid drugs, I've never wanted to die. Also to a lot of peoples disbelief, I've never cut myself and I never will.
7. I plan my days out by the minute. On a work day I'll wake up at 6:34, be dressed by 6:44, start my car at 6:51 and leave my house at 7:00.
I could go on a little longer.
8. I wish that I could eat cheesesteaks and mcdonalds burgers everyday but because I used to eat that shit so much when I was younger, I eat a little bit healthier and watch my weight.
9. I wish I could play the guitar, sing and write the way I used to. Since "Worldly"(Don't go crazy, chris) I haven't written anything that I really thought was above average. "Stay Tuned" and "Speak" are two of my favorite songs I've written.
10. Given the right band, circumstance and distance I would sing in a band again.
11. I've never been able to really focus in a classroom setting. The only time I did and actually did well was at First Step, the GED program where I learned things that are much more important to know than how many tires Jimmy would buy if he bought 1 every 3 months for 6 years. Fuck Jimmy.
12. I have a ridiculously good memory when it comes down to conversations I've had. even if its with someone I barely knew.
13. I have awful eye sight. it sucks, bro.
14. Minus the movies I like that most people rave about and the movies I like that are highly talked about Indies(how the fuck have most of you not seen Kids? jesus.) I usually have pretty weird taste in movies.
15. I will watch ANY movie with Samuel L Jackson, Jeremy Piven and Will Smith. Even Lakeview Terrace and even Hitch.
16. I get jealous of my sister from time to time, we both are doing good things and we both took different paths. I'm happy and proud that she's so smart and so good at balancing so many things. She should have whatever life she wants for herself, she deserves it.
17. Both of my parents work over an hour away from home. Both of them have Government jobs that were never explained well to me.(more so my Mom on that one)
18. I'm slightly ashamed and upset with the number of people I've slept with because only a few have meant much to me. I also realize that I was a kid back then and things are much different now. Obviously.
19. I think its weird that I come off as an incredibly unhappy person to some and than come off as a happy, upbeat guy to others. It changes often, sure but I think I'm definitely the happiest unhappy person around. probably.
20. The main source of my winter-long depression has been the 'rejection'(albeit civil and partially understood) I've felt for the first time in my life. It's probably something I needed but in both cases I think feelings were mutual but I mean like Conor would say "It's cool, we can just be friends."
21. I don't always see all of my friends too often. For numerous reasons like my moodiness, my work schedule, etc. None of that shit matters when I do see them.
22. I miss sitting outside of dunkin donuts with everyone for 3 or 4 hours a night.
23. Most people have awful impressions of me because of things I did years ago, things they've heard about or things they think. I'm probably a lot different than you'd think. You should talk to me, you should get to know me. There is so much more to me than what I did in my basement 3-5 years ago.
24. I'm way too shy for my liking and unless I'm drunk I'm in a shell.
25. I don't have many things about me that I feel like I should change and I usually think of myself as one of the better, more loyal people around. What would fuel such a thought? People tell me. Some people can handle it and some people can't but I can come off like a negative, angry, bitter prick - so much so that I probably come off that way more often than not. I'm just a little different.
I will always give you my best. intentions, thoughts, wisdom, emotion and energy. I don't like making myself happy and doing things for myself. I like it when I can make other people happy.
1. I am almost never sick, I get a small cold once or twice a year and remain in great health otherwise. It's a little weird because everyone else in my immediate family is often sick. I got lucky.
2. I have a really short attention span and some of my favorite albums are really long(low level owl vol. 1 and 2, colors, lifted, etc.) and so I rarely get to listen to them as a whole and it sucks because they are great albums.
3. I have no clue what I'm going to be doing in a year and I don't really have any huge ambitions like dreaming to be a doctor or something. I want to a small to mid level guy just about anywhere. 33-40k should be fine for the way I want to live my life, family included.
4. I don't see my family as often as I did before I had this job but I'm typically very close and involved with them, my parents especially. I tell my parents everything they want to know and I'm very lucky that they raised me as well as they did.
5. I had a lot of trouble growing up. it started after 5th grade, my dog and my godmother both died in the same year and I had no idea how to take it. 6th through 9th grade are both a blur for me, I was in and out of mental institutions, juvi meetings and schools. Believe it or not, I used to pretty much hit everyone I saw. I have no idea how to deal with death and its just another thing on my list of things to worry about everyday.
6. I'm probably the most depressed and depressing person you'll ever meet. however, I'll never tell you something I don't believe in 100% and I don't do it as an act. I love life, I love living it and even though I've done some stupid things with stupid drugs, I've never wanted to die. Also to a lot of peoples disbelief, I've never cut myself and I never will.
7. I plan my days out by the minute. On a work day I'll wake up at 6:34, be dressed by 6:44, start my car at 6:51 and leave my house at 7:00.
I could go on a little longer.
8. I wish that I could eat cheesesteaks and mcdonalds burgers everyday but because I used to eat that shit so much when I was younger, I eat a little bit healthier and watch my weight.
9. I wish I could play the guitar, sing and write the way I used to. Since "Worldly"(Don't go crazy, chris) I haven't written anything that I really thought was above average. "Stay Tuned" and "Speak" are two of my favorite songs I've written.
10. Given the right band, circumstance and distance I would sing in a band again.
11. I've never been able to really focus in a classroom setting. The only time I did and actually did well was at First Step, the GED program where I learned things that are much more important to know than how many tires Jimmy would buy if he bought 1 every 3 months for 6 years. Fuck Jimmy.
12. I have a ridiculously good memory when it comes down to conversations I've had. even if its with someone I barely knew.
13. I have awful eye sight. it sucks, bro.
14. Minus the movies I like that most people rave about and the movies I like that are highly talked about Indies(how the fuck have most of you not seen Kids? jesus.) I usually have pretty weird taste in movies.
15. I will watch ANY movie with Samuel L Jackson, Jeremy Piven and Will Smith. Even Lakeview Terrace and even Hitch.
16. I get jealous of my sister from time to time, we both are doing good things and we both took different paths. I'm happy and proud that she's so smart and so good at balancing so many things. She should have whatever life she wants for herself, she deserves it.
17. Both of my parents work over an hour away from home. Both of them have Government jobs that were never explained well to me.(more so my Mom on that one)
18. I'm slightly ashamed and upset with the number of people I've slept with because only a few have meant much to me. I also realize that I was a kid back then and things are much different now. Obviously.
19. I think its weird that I come off as an incredibly unhappy person to some and than come off as a happy, upbeat guy to others. It changes often, sure but I think I'm definitely the happiest unhappy person around. probably.
20. The main source of my winter-long depression has been the 'rejection'(albeit civil and partially understood) I've felt for the first time in my life. It's probably something I needed but in both cases I think feelings were mutual but I mean like Conor would say "It's cool, we can just be friends."
21. I don't always see all of my friends too often. For numerous reasons like my moodiness, my work schedule, etc. None of that shit matters when I do see them.
22. I miss sitting outside of dunkin donuts with everyone for 3 or 4 hours a night.
23. Most people have awful impressions of me because of things I did years ago, things they've heard about or things they think. I'm probably a lot different than you'd think. You should talk to me, you should get to know me. There is so much more to me than what I did in my basement 3-5 years ago.
24. I'm way too shy for my liking and unless I'm drunk I'm in a shell.
25. I don't have many things about me that I feel like I should change and I usually think of myself as one of the better, more loyal people around. What would fuel such a thought? People tell me. Some people can handle it and some people can't but I can come off like a negative, angry, bitter prick - so much so that I probably come off that way more often than not. I'm just a little different.
I will always give you my best. intentions, thoughts, wisdom, emotion and energy. I don't like making myself happy and doing things for myself. I like it when I can make other people happy.