just a note.
I really wish things were different for us and as much as I’d like to think I keep it hidden or deny it, I’m completely crazy for you. still.
I don’t know how exactly I could explain why to you or anyone else. You are a completely different person compared to anyone I know, you are smart, you are well versed and you are beautiful.
I think I at least somewhat understand why nothing happened and nothing worked out. You’re leaving, you never worry about these things, I’m overwhelming and the odds that 2 people would feel the same way about each other should never be as high as people let them seem.
Regardless, you’re incredible and I never let any of this shit bother me because even without many serious conversations everything you say to me still means the world.
I’m glad you think of me as such a great friend and I’m really glad we hung out again the other night.
this was all completely random but its always on my mind. If by chance you do read this, I don’t want it to come off as bitter/confused or anything like that. Things have to happens for reasons, we’ve talked about it, its done.