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Life is full of mistakes, wrong turns, letdowns and bad luck.
You're never going to be happy or satisfied for more than about an hour or two if you continue to think as narrowly as you are now.
You're so young and underneath all of the ridiculously stupid shit you do, you show so much promise just being able to hold a conversation.
I shouldn't care as much as I do but I'm not who I used to be anymore.
Despite my best efforts, I care about everyone and I want to see everyone happy - regardless of the wreck I've become.
On a seperate note,
I really let myself down when I got my hopes so high over her and I just realized that monday.
it really dragged me down and I really couldn't understand why not me and...I get it now.
I wear every emotion I have on my sleeve and I've been as open as I can be to everyone and lets be honest,
who wants to hear me bitch about my lucky streak of never getting fucked over ending when they've been fucked over for the past 4-5 years or so. It seemed a little selfish but I really haven't learned the best way to deal without drinking a lot, yet.
I'm sort of nostalgic about being in a band. I truly miss it and I don't know if the opportunity will arise again but with this work schedule I could almost certainly pull it off.
You're never going to be happy or satisfied for more than about an hour or two if you continue to think as narrowly as you are now.
You're so young and underneath all of the ridiculously stupid shit you do, you show so much promise just being able to hold a conversation.
I shouldn't care as much as I do but I'm not who I used to be anymore.
Despite my best efforts, I care about everyone and I want to see everyone happy - regardless of the wreck I've become.
On a seperate note,
I really let myself down when I got my hopes so high over her and I just realized that monday.
it really dragged me down and I really couldn't understand why not me and...I get it now.
I wear every emotion I have on my sleeve and I've been as open as I can be to everyone and lets be honest,
who wants to hear me bitch about my lucky streak of never getting fucked over ending when they've been fucked over for the past 4-5 years or so. It seemed a little selfish but I really haven't learned the best way to deal without drinking a lot, yet.
I'm sort of nostalgic about being in a band. I truly miss it and I don't know if the opportunity will arise again but with this work schedule I could almost certainly pull it off.