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for the last month (even tho its felt like an eternity) ive been avoiding what the real problem is! Its been staring me right in my expressionless face, i have nothing!
All i really want is to be held the way he held me but i kno this isnt meant to be! My wold around me turned to shit and crumbled like a land slide and u heald me tight and everything was okay! Now where are you? i need u more now than maybe ever and ur no where to be found! Not the sound of ur voice or the look in ur eyes! They have both slowly faded away till now, till im left with nothing but my broken heart you quietly handed me on the night i walked away! The thought of u here is so intoxicating i can bearly feel emotion. I wana close my eyes and never open them, that is the only time i can see your face! You make reasoning in all of my fears! I lay in my bed, on ur side, and think of the last nite we spent together. You lookde at me as if u knew it was going to be the final time we would be 'us'. You face held the expression of saying goodbye, but your eyes were different, they said 'never leave me'. but now im gone and i would give the very little i have left to spend one last nite with you! I bearly slept for two years, i would stay up while u slept and watch over you and write you letters i knew i would never give you. You were so much to me! i told u how much i loved you in thses stupid letters but i could never show u just how special you really were to me! I could sit in silence for hours with you as we watched out over the sea and i could not think of any place in the world id rather be and when u sed u felt the same me head hurt from holding bak the tears!
Now ur realli gone and my head hurts everyday! I guess i still wait for your call!
All i really want is to be held the way he held me but i kno this isnt meant to be! My wold around me turned to shit and crumbled like a land slide and u heald me tight and everything was okay! Now where are you? i need u more now than maybe ever and ur no where to be found! Not the sound of ur voice or the look in ur eyes! They have both slowly faded away till now, till im left with nothing but my broken heart you quietly handed me on the night i walked away! The thought of u here is so intoxicating i can bearly feel emotion. I wana close my eyes and never open them, that is the only time i can see your face! You make reasoning in all of my fears! I lay in my bed, on ur side, and think of the last nite we spent together. You lookde at me as if u knew it was going to be the final time we would be 'us'. You face held the expression of saying goodbye, but your eyes were different, they said 'never leave me'. but now im gone and i would give the very little i have left to spend one last nite with you! I bearly slept for two years, i would stay up while u slept and watch over you and write you letters i knew i would never give you. You were so much to me! i told u how much i loved you in thses stupid letters but i could never show u just how special you really were to me! I could sit in silence for hours with you as we watched out over the sea and i could not think of any place in the world id rather be and when u sed u felt the same me head hurt from holding bak the tears!
Now ur realli gone and my head hurts everyday! I guess i still wait for your call!