yeah...

[randomxhearts]

so sammy went on a date kind of thing with a girl last night. i am so mixed with emotions it's driving me mad. like my first thought was relief cause he did it first...so i won't feel bad if i go on a date. then sad cause yeah it's basically over, and happy cause i can finally move on...it's like i'm feeling them all at the same time it's kind of overwhelming...it sucks that i'm alone at my gramps rght now...i wish i had people around me to comfort me. im going to kick it with my friends tonight and tomorrow so that should be good...probably get way to drunk but oh well...shit happens, it's time i move on. and i did want him to move on first so i wouldn't feel guilty...i still will, but not as...just like he felt awkward telling me he went out with a girl last night oh well...life...

and as sheryl crow would say the first cut is the deepest...sorry that song just came on