On Growing Up
Lately it's been becoming more and more evident to me that growing up is a personal choice. Sure, one might be compelled to "grow up" and realize this later because of a certain event. Nevertheless, the decision to accept change and to face challenges remains a personal decision.
Anyhoo, in other news...
We went to Subic for the long weekend. It was wonderful, just the thing I was looking for after feeling so wasted the previous week. I had absolutely no internet access, and zero signal for my phone about 90% of the time. It was a retreat.
But I think this won't be the last that I see of Subic. I'm definitely heading back when I desperately need some R&R. Who cares if the drive is four to fice hours from my house, right? *gulp*
I'm definitely going back for the beach. There's a new beach resort which was so well maintained that I overcame my fear of the sea that day...
This I achieved by jumping into 10+ feet deep water and going Little Mermaid mode with all the colorful fishies swimming right past me. Considering that I previously have a fear of the ocean because I recall all the living things in it and all the living things that expired in it, it was an accomplishment for me to even get myself waist-deep in the water.
It definitely scared the daylights out of me to jump in at first, particularly since from the platform I could hardly see the seabed. By thinking happy thoughts (or maybe not thinking at all), I finally jumped in and was even more frightened when I realized that I was completely submerged and couldn't get up for air so quickly.
ut after that first gasp of air, I felt so great that I swam up to the platform again and jumped in a good 5 more times.
Fear is irrational. I agree.
But I can't deny that it's difficult to overcome them. Once you do, it feels as if you can conquer ANYTHING.
After that, I could say that I was more scared of the monkeys... they like shiny things.
Anyhoo, in other news...
We went to Subic for the long weekend. It was wonderful, just the thing I was looking for after feeling so wasted the previous week. I had absolutely no internet access, and zero signal for my phone about 90% of the time. It was a retreat.
But I think this won't be the last that I see of Subic. I'm definitely heading back when I desperately need some R&R. Who cares if the drive is four to fice hours from my house, right? *gulp*
I'm definitely going back for the beach. There's a new beach resort which was so well maintained that I overcame my fear of the sea that day...
This I achieved by jumping into 10+ feet deep water and going Little Mermaid mode with all the colorful fishies swimming right past me. Considering that I previously have a fear of the ocean because I recall all the living things in it and all the living things that expired in it, it was an accomplishment for me to even get myself waist-deep in the water.
It definitely scared the daylights out of me to jump in at first, particularly since from the platform I could hardly see the seabed. By thinking happy thoughts (or maybe not thinking at all), I finally jumped in and was even more frightened when I realized that I was completely submerged and couldn't get up for air so quickly.
ut after that first gasp of air, I felt so great that I swam up to the platform again and jumped in a good 5 more times.
Fear is irrational. I agree.
But I can't deny that it's difficult to overcome them. Once you do, it feels as if you can conquer ANYTHING.
After that, I could say that I was more scared of the monkeys... they like shiny things.