Nov 21, 2013 01:08
Has it ever happened to you that things just suddenly seem to make complete sense?
By this I mean something as enormous as your purpose in life. All of a sudden, it's as if everything that you've been doing-- even the seemingly-pointless parts of it -- led you to this realization of where you were called to be. That, to begin with, you were headed into the right direction although you had to take some alternate routes which you thought were the main roads.
Out of a normal day where you think you had everything according to plan, comes something from the left field that you did not expect. And yet, you also had in your peripheral vision all along...
Maybe the reason why it seems like this is a personal treasure more than it seems to be valued by others, is because it is precisely my passion, and purpose. Everything just falling into place. Everything just making more and more sense. Maybe it's just me who sees why it's so precious at the moment.
But with the realization that by taking that path, some things will be left behind. There's a fear that's trying to build up within me that I won't be able to do it. That it's all in my head. That I'll just make mistakes. That people will judge me for what I've decided.
It's not like I'm doing anything wrong. And yet here they are, all the fears just pouring in because they want to... as if bigger miracles hadn't happened in my life (they have).
And just like that, I'm stumped again. And the passion is lost. Maybe it wasn't my purpose after all.
life,
musings,
random