Of Dreams and Realities
As you can see, that is, based on the last entry, it's been quite busy.
How busy? The kind of busy that you try not to forget things, but end up forgetting the smallest, yet the most important things. The kind where you just try to get things done in a day and hope that things turn out okay for tomorrow. The kind where you go home, try to rest before taking a shower, only to open your eyes and find that it's morning already.
That last one is my least favorite, too. As far as hygiene is concerned, I have little tolerance for dirt and grime and sweat and... all these other things that need cleansed at the end of the day.
As much as it's been incredibly busy since the second semester began, I've also been overwhelmed with all the goings-on that have taught me an incredible number of life lessons. Just recently, we hosted an international conference. Inasmuch as I had tried to help in the organizing, I realized that there is SO MUCH that I am completely clueless of where logistics and planning is concerned. Though I pride myself in being OC and being very meticulous about planning events, I found that I could not give my best in planning the whole thing.
At the same time, I'm juggling other responsibilities which simply makes me wonder if they're testing or training me... Maybe it's both.
Back when I was in my younger, more naive years, I believed that teachers had all the time in the world to focus on studies and on how they teach. Being a student forever has its novelty, though I don't know if this appeals to a lot of people in the real world. As far as I can remember, I had always heard people mention how teaching is a vocation more than anything.
As I'd become more exposed to the realities of yuppie life,it has also become more apparent that one can only hope that the life lessons students learn in the classroom prove to be useful once they meet the realities of their life dreams.
As I try to understand what exactly it is I want to devote my life to-- to work for-- I also come across these realities of the work place. Some say that I have it easier because of the nature of my work, not to mention the environment that I had been able to work in. Inasmuch as I agree with that, I also want to remind those who think this that there really is no "easy job", that somehow the realities one has to face in the workplace become easier depending on the circumstance.
In my third year of trying to figure out how to make myself more useful in society, I realize that I must try to also go back to being self-interested to move forward. I mean this in the sense that I have to remember what it is that I love doing, so that I can find a way to combine this with my career options and the growth that I need as I go on that career path.
So far, so good though. Things are beginning to look up, and I have a feeling that this might be my chance to figure out how to make it on my own... slowly:
1. Found a wonderful dorm, will move in by next year (January). My dream of having a place of my own is finally becoming more of a reality! Budgeting and everything is another story though.
2. I am trying to apply for a scholarship which is perfect for the subject I teach. It will also be in Japan. Wish me luck!
3. For 2012, I will try harder to be a better instructor, mentor and friend. Especially the instructor part. Haha!
How busy? The kind of busy that you try not to forget things, but end up forgetting the smallest, yet the most important things. The kind where you just try to get things done in a day and hope that things turn out okay for tomorrow. The kind where you go home, try to rest before taking a shower, only to open your eyes and find that it's morning already.
That last one is my least favorite, too. As far as hygiene is concerned, I have little tolerance for dirt and grime and sweat and... all these other things that need cleansed at the end of the day.
As much as it's been incredibly busy since the second semester began, I've also been overwhelmed with all the goings-on that have taught me an incredible number of life lessons. Just recently, we hosted an international conference. Inasmuch as I had tried to help in the organizing, I realized that there is SO MUCH that I am completely clueless of where logistics and planning is concerned. Though I pride myself in being OC and being very meticulous about planning events, I found that I could not give my best in planning the whole thing.
At the same time, I'm juggling other responsibilities which simply makes me wonder if they're testing or training me... Maybe it's both.
Back when I was in my younger, more naive years, I believed that teachers had all the time in the world to focus on studies and on how they teach. Being a student forever has its novelty, though I don't know if this appeals to a lot of people in the real world. As far as I can remember, I had always heard people mention how teaching is a vocation more than anything.
As I'd become more exposed to the realities of yuppie life,it has also become more apparent that one can only hope that the life lessons students learn in the classroom prove to be useful once they meet the realities of their life dreams.
As I try to understand what exactly it is I want to devote my life to-- to work for-- I also come across these realities of the work place. Some say that I have it easier because of the nature of my work, not to mention the environment that I had been able to work in. Inasmuch as I agree with that, I also want to remind those who think this that there really is no "easy job", that somehow the realities one has to face in the workplace become easier depending on the circumstance.
In my third year of trying to figure out how to make myself more useful in society, I realize that I must try to also go back to being self-interested to move forward. I mean this in the sense that I have to remember what it is that I love doing, so that I can find a way to combine this with my career options and the growth that I need as I go on that career path.
So far, so good though. Things are beginning to look up, and I have a feeling that this might be my chance to figure out how to make it on my own... slowly:
1. Found a wonderful dorm, will move in by next year (January). My dream of having a place of my own is finally becoming more of a reality! Budgeting and everything is another story though.
2. I am trying to apply for a scholarship which is perfect for the subject I teach. It will also be in Japan. Wish me luck!
3. For 2012, I will try harder to be a better instructor, mentor and friend. Especially the instructor part. Haha!