although he'll never read this...
Remember when we use to make each other, instead of break each other?
I look back at the past, and I can NEVER regret what we had. Not a moment. All of it has been a blessing, and all of it had been worth the wait. All the years of patience, and never getting into some bs relationship. I'm so glad this was my first relationship. I just wish that I could turn back time.. and well.. I don't know. I still feel as if all of this is my fault. If I hadn't pushed away...
I'm still sticking with my promise to fate, but I'm allowed to look back, right?
It's hard to tell if what I'm doing is manipulating the relationship, but I'm not doing it on purpose any more. God knows that. Right now, I'll let things happen on their own. I'm not going to hold on. I'm not going to push away. I'm not going to wait for him to sign on, or call him. I'm not going to attempt to block him, or attempt to ignore him. I'm just going to do my school work, live, and let things be.
I look back at the past, and I can NEVER regret what we had. Not a moment. All of it has been a blessing, and all of it had been worth the wait. All the years of patience, and never getting into some bs relationship. I'm so glad this was my first relationship. I just wish that I could turn back time.. and well.. I don't know. I still feel as if all of this is my fault. If I hadn't pushed away...
I'm still sticking with my promise to fate, but I'm allowed to look back, right?
It's hard to tell if what I'm doing is manipulating the relationship, but I'm not doing it on purpose any more. God knows that. Right now, I'll let things happen on their own. I'm not going to hold on. I'm not going to push away. I'm not going to wait for him to sign on, or call him. I'm not going to attempt to block him, or attempt to ignore him. I'm just going to do my school work, live, and let things be.