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I'm fighting the urge to jump off the grid..
run silent so to speak
no phone
no internet
no cable
I wonder what I would do if I did go quiet.. would I actually do any of these 124567 things that are running through my head.. finish any of the art projects that I have tucked away in my window seats.. get up and move like I know I need to..
or would I just sit and read... Withdraw and live through other peoples words..
That is always such a danger with me.. to withdraw and watch life...
I forgot how much Customer Service effected me... So many people around me.. talking, shedding their thoughts and feelings all over me.. So many lil problems that need to be taken care of.. that either I don't have the power to take care of or there is nothing I can do to fix it... It drains me so fast... One month and I'm already overloaded to the point that I had to put flannels and sox on (I drew the line at the big fluffy houserobe.)... thank goodness for the A/C.. cotton nighties just don't have the soothing power that flannel jammies bring...
I suppose if I'm honest, it doesn't help that I have been away from my house most of the last two weeks. While dating/being in a realtionship with someone local has it's bennies.. there are also drawbacks for someone like me.. Someone who loves to be at home..
sigh..
time to spend some quality time with my kid.. watch lucky number sleven and blood..eat some pizza and recharge..
run silent so to speak
no phone
no internet
no cable
I wonder what I would do if I did go quiet.. would I actually do any of these 124567 things that are running through my head.. finish any of the art projects that I have tucked away in my window seats.. get up and move like I know I need to..
or would I just sit and read... Withdraw and live through other peoples words..
That is always such a danger with me.. to withdraw and watch life...
I forgot how much Customer Service effected me... So many people around me.. talking, shedding their thoughts and feelings all over me.. So many lil problems that need to be taken care of.. that either I don't have the power to take care of or there is nothing I can do to fix it... It drains me so fast... One month and I'm already overloaded to the point that I had to put flannels and sox on (I drew the line at the big fluffy houserobe.)... thank goodness for the A/C.. cotton nighties just don't have the soothing power that flannel jammies bring...
I suppose if I'm honest, it doesn't help that I have been away from my house most of the last two weeks. While dating/being in a realtionship with someone local has it's bennies.. there are also drawbacks for someone like me.. Someone who loves to be at home..
sigh..
time to spend some quality time with my kid.. watch lucky number sleven and blood..eat some pizza and recharge..