I would rather live in his world. .
"than live in my own world; cause my world, is his, his and his alone"
-Leavin on a midnight train to georgia
I am honestly beginning to wonder where the hell my life is going here. Nothing seems to be going well. Try as I may. . I just seem to make it worse.
Here is the list:
-crap body image. I hate everything about the way that I look. I guess my only excitement is that I have all of my limbs in proper working order.
-lack of female friendship/companionship. I love how i never have time for anything, and then when i do, no one can hang out. grr!
-lousy grades. just got my accounting exam grade back. I don't even want to tell my tutor what i got. or my mom. or aaron. or anyone for that matter. i am taking this one to the grave. its THAT bad. to top it off, i have group projects up the ass. i HATE group projects. You have to worry about stomping ideas, having to do all of the work, people not showing up, etc.
-no money. nyc cleaned me out. I wish i were going home to work this summer, but unfortunately, school attacks again
-no major. I cannot be a business major; alas i do not posess a 4.0 gpa. i don't really want to be anything else, so i am very disinterested by this whole school thing. I just want it over with. whomever said that college is supposed to be the best 4 years of your life, must have been on crack or something. its not shaping up to be.
-aaron and i. we were going well, and i think we still are. but a) i still have that extra winter 10lbs (which i can tell is a problem for him) b) we played phone tag and he is still it. we never did talk tonight, making this the first night in ages we haven't talked. very dissettling. like cannot sleep dissettling. i didn't mean to not pick up, but the damn phone wouldn't have worked anyway!!
-conflicting dates. jean is coming on friday. aaron is coming on thursday (maybe, we'll see if he still wants to). what to do. i want to see both of them. i know aaron is staying through sunday. i don't know how long jean is staying. i hope neither one has a problem sharing a room with the other.
i am going to stop now, cause i can see this getting v. ugly, and me losinga lot of sleep over it.
further more, i made it a year with aaron. lets hope i can keep him and this for another year. and another. right now, i am just going to cross my fingers for my favorite boy, my grades for b school, my spartans, and my girlies to come around. oh yeah. and to win a huge sum of money to pay tuition!
sorry i haven't posted, been too damn busy.
good night, and sweet dreams. and i miss you times infiniti.
i wish the comp could talk back. aaron always says all of that back. for now, i will take my words on the screen as good enough.
-Leavin on a midnight train to georgia
I am honestly beginning to wonder where the hell my life is going here. Nothing seems to be going well. Try as I may. . I just seem to make it worse.
Here is the list:
-crap body image. I hate everything about the way that I look. I guess my only excitement is that I have all of my limbs in proper working order.
-lack of female friendship/companionship. I love how i never have time for anything, and then when i do, no one can hang out. grr!
-lousy grades. just got my accounting exam grade back. I don't even want to tell my tutor what i got. or my mom. or aaron. or anyone for that matter. i am taking this one to the grave. its THAT bad. to top it off, i have group projects up the ass. i HATE group projects. You have to worry about stomping ideas, having to do all of the work, people not showing up, etc.
-no money. nyc cleaned me out. I wish i were going home to work this summer, but unfortunately, school attacks again
-no major. I cannot be a business major; alas i do not posess a 4.0 gpa. i don't really want to be anything else, so i am very disinterested by this whole school thing. I just want it over with. whomever said that college is supposed to be the best 4 years of your life, must have been on crack or something. its not shaping up to be.
-aaron and i. we were going well, and i think we still are. but a) i still have that extra winter 10lbs (which i can tell is a problem for him) b) we played phone tag and he is still it. we never did talk tonight, making this the first night in ages we haven't talked. very dissettling. like cannot sleep dissettling. i didn't mean to not pick up, but the damn phone wouldn't have worked anyway!!
-conflicting dates. jean is coming on friday. aaron is coming on thursday (maybe, we'll see if he still wants to). what to do. i want to see both of them. i know aaron is staying through sunday. i don't know how long jean is staying. i hope neither one has a problem sharing a room with the other.
i am going to stop now, cause i can see this getting v. ugly, and me losinga lot of sleep over it.
further more, i made it a year with aaron. lets hope i can keep him and this for another year. and another. right now, i am just going to cross my fingers for my favorite boy, my grades for b school, my spartans, and my girlies to come around. oh yeah. and to win a huge sum of money to pay tuition!
sorry i haven't posted, been too damn busy.
good night, and sweet dreams. and i miss you times infiniti.
i wish the comp could talk back. aaron always says all of that back. for now, i will take my words on the screen as good enough.