Nov 04, 2004 21:46
on a note from the lack of posting- school is taking over my life. that is pretty much it. that and i started a new job at the library, working at the ass crack of dawn m-r. so now i am getting sick again, and i don't get enough sleep. i love my life. however, i just finished another econ exam, and there were only two that i am worried about. that is so comforting!!!
so here i sit at like 10 on a thursday night, and i would like to party tonight, i guess, but sometimes it is just better to curl up in your bed with a good book. things like that can be nice!! considering that i may not see aaron this weekend at all, i actually have some FREE time. i mean, i have an exam next week, and homework, and stuff, but its just me, and i don't care if my room is a mess. I love spending time with him, and i would love if he did come, but if he doesn't, that is okay. cause next weekend, we get to celebrate his bday. i can't wait for that. he is such an awesome guy, boyfriend or not, that i want it to be extra special for him. i would love to tell him what i got him, but i don't want to spoil the surprise. . .i had enought trouble deciding for heaven sake!!!
to me a birthday is a really big deal. mainly cause you only have so many years on this planet, and i feel that they should all be celebrated. when i asked my roommates which holiday was more important (giftwise), they both said xmas. But i just cannot agree with that. because xmas isn't about gifts, really. It is about spending time with family and friends. So i want aarons birthday to be perfect. i wish i could be with him on the actual day (wednesday), but ibm makes these things impossible. besides, its not like i could go out to the bar with everyone anyway, i would just be a killjoy.
except that in less than three months, when it is my birthday, i will be able to join that crowd. in the meantime, i need to find someone who looks like me for new years eve?? please help me guys!!!! i reallly really want to go with aaron, and i cannot go if i am underage.and it will be less than a month by that point anyway. . .
on another topic, i have gotten tons of callbacks for internships and co ops, and it occurs to me that i am really scared of the idea of graduating and working a nine to five.i'm not ready for that sort of thing yet. i look at aaron's life, and i couldn't do that-not live out of a suitcase!! i guess maybe i still don't know exactly what i want. for the moment though, i have 3 companies to research- asap. and i have to get a new suit, and make some hotel reservations for two weeks from now, when i get to go to indiana to interview for a co op position. v. exciting, i guess. . . my mom is happy for me, but i would really just like to go back to daycare right now (as a child, not a teacher)
so i am going to go cuddle up with my blankie and some cookies and juice, and read myself a happy novel. . .