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[randomliargirl]

i am off to maine tomorrow.

nervous that i am.

please ppl. message me with lots and lots of love and phone me up a few times while i am gone. hopefully this will turn into a slightly religious retreat for me.

i need to get my head on straight before school.

i need for things to be ok again.

i am going to be happy by the end of the week. i know it seems like a short time period to achieve short and sudden happiness but i am determined.

i once had a determination and drive that others would dream of. where did it go? it is hidden somewhere deep within me and i am going to dig it up some way or another.

i hope jeff and i are going to be ok. things have been rough. but my faith has been renewed in his smile and looking through old pictures and remembering. i know with all my heart that i want to be with him.

this is the first relationship ive been in where i have known. where i have felt it entirely.

after this week... things are gonna change. things are gonna be positive. i can feel it. for once i am not flat out afraid. i am confident. soon to be happy.

wish me luck all. this is a journey i am on.

call  me  please.

i love you guys with all my heart.