Music

[randomkidrox]

So isn't it interesting how different music reminds you of different things? Like I've been listening to Dave Matthews Band a lot lately and it makes me think of summers on the beach, visting our friends in Yellow Springs, weekends with the Geist/Brinkman/Mireles group and driving on long car trips. Willy Porter makes me think of Anne McCaffrey and the Dragonriders of Pern and all those hours of my youth spent cooped up inside with the computer writing stories based on a world not my own, with people I didn't even know. Iz (aka the Fat Hawaiian lol) makes me think of driving to New York with my dad, the entire summer after my mom died, and my mom... We heard his version of Somewhere over the Rainbow in the episode of ER where Mark Green died and she loved it so she found it online and listened to it over and over again. All my "The" Bands (The Shins, The Killers, The Redwalls) make me think of this year so far and how much I've changed and how much I've stayed the same... staying up to three in the morning talking about random stuff with Stephanie and Heather, the challenges I've overcome and the mistakes I've made.

So I'm writing about this instead of what I'm really thinking about, even though its eating me up inside... I just don't know what to do and its killing me.

God, boys are so stupid.

I let you down
I have no lid upon my head
But if I did
You could look inside and see what's on my mind
You could look inside and see what's on my mind
I let you down, oh, forgive me
You give me love
Let me walk with you, maybe I could say
Maybe talk with you, open up
And let me through
Don't walk away