addicted to the drink that the media sold, living for nothing, there only a hobo.

[randomismylyfe]

ok well im going to retract everything i said in the last entry. im being a bitch. my lil bro might be staying in the hospital and im just freaked out cuz i know what its like to be in that situation.. mine was worse but you cant really help and worry ya know? plus the hospital gives me the heebee geebees. im a fucking doushe for being so selfish. i dont know whats wrong with me? why is it always about me with everything? i shouldnt care about myself. i should care about my friends , my family and my boyfriend and like everyone else in the world. so why does it always come back to me and my bullshit?

yea i dunno today wasnt too good. failed a quiz in mr winters, failed my road rules test and that thing i thot got cleared up with ilde's girlfriend, she still hates me.

Rueff knew i was having a bad day. he bought me apple juice and gave it to me after 5th. it was so sweet. man i love that kid.

i got home and watched like 4 episodes of lost. its really really good. im on disc 4 out of like 7 but disc 7 is like special features. im look hooked to it and if my family (who is supposedly supposed to be back soon.. hopefully all of them...) well actually they just called and nicks ok for now..

*sigh* i have a huge headache. im just so blehhh.

i dunno why im so unhappy lately. i should be happy. everything is awesome with me and rueff. 3 more days and its our anniversary. why am i so down?