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mum and dad are away this weekend. its the loughborough meet-up. i didn't want to go this time. i always end up going a bit mental. i forget how intense it is and how much it takes it out of me being with 'normal' people non stop for a weekend. its always nice to see everyone but i just didn't feel like going. im looking forward to another weekend on my own.
they're stopping off to see gran on the way down. she's been having radiotherapy this week on a lump she found. apparently its going ok, and shes managing ok.
dad's not doing so well, i think he's trying his best to keep busy, but its hard to decide what to do i think. he always looks a bit lost and fragile.
and a week on saturday i've got my workshop to give. im trying not to think about it. cause when i do i get a bit nervous. im not good talking in general never mind in front of people, but its only one day and im determined to not let it phase me if i go wrong or mess up or whatever. i always make mistakes with everything but im trying to deal with it better.
i always seem to some to update when its our anniversary, but once again it is tomorrow. 11 months. it goes by so quickly. i don't want to gush too much, i always hated that, but then i never understood it either. but now i do, thats all im saying.
they're stopping off to see gran on the way down. she's been having radiotherapy this week on a lump she found. apparently its going ok, and shes managing ok.
dad's not doing so well, i think he's trying his best to keep busy, but its hard to decide what to do i think. he always looks a bit lost and fragile.
and a week on saturday i've got my workshop to give. im trying not to think about it. cause when i do i get a bit nervous. im not good talking in general never mind in front of people, but its only one day and im determined to not let it phase me if i go wrong or mess up or whatever. i always make mistakes with everything but im trying to deal with it better.
i always seem to some to update when its our anniversary, but once again it is tomorrow. 11 months. it goes by so quickly. i don't want to gush too much, i always hated that, but then i never understood it either. but now i do, thats all im saying.