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i want to always be the best friend of my best friend. i don't mean to be cryptic i just hate using names. it seems so obvious. so invasive. i just love this girl and every time i think of her and in every context she makes me smile. just because she is existing somewhere and being just as awesome as she's always been. it's wierd how people grow up and grow apart and some just don't. i know i've changed and you've changed and we've changed but not in the way that everyone else does. we still exist in our own time and space that has nothing to do with age or location. and it fucking rocks. she's my favorite person in the whole world and in the back of my mind i hear this voice saying that it shouldn't ever change. that this is how it's supposed to be because when you find your best friend you don't just let go because it's not convenient anymore. you hang on even tighter because you know that it's always fucking convenient. even when to everyone else it doesn't look that way. to you its just gotten a lot more interestingly convenient. to you things might be a little more complicated but not anything that matters. so buses and such are involved in spontaneous chill sessions, so you can't exactly just "come over." who the hell cares? it may suck sometimes but it sucks because you know that no matter what you have to do to make it work you'll do it and you just get a little lazy and wish you didnt have to do so much. but you look around and acknowledge the fact that you can't imagine life without your best friend and you shouldn't have to and you probably never will have to so why even bother? i mean, life is sweet and let's have a nice chill time thinking about how good you've decided it's always gonna be...