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my roommate is absoluetly out of control. but i don't even know that i care. to be perfectly honest, i think i'm just in need of a little male attention. being her roommate is like perpetually being the "good friend" and it's a little sucky. and i'm told that i don't want a random hookup and i'm told that i'm better than that...but who really is? every now and then, it's nice to just be physical. and leave all the emotional bullshit for another day. i have so much emotional stuff anyway that it hardly matters...but is that really true? i don't even know. becuase i don't really want a random hookup so much as i want one specific person. and it's driving me insane. and everyday i think i'm becoming more and more ridiculous and it is absoluelty a terrible terrible thing. and i've vented quite enough and need to stop right now.