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I don't get it. I mean. I dunno. I feel like my mom really truly doesn't like me.
And by saying doesn't like me I mean hates me, and I think it's because I am my dad's only child, and she hates him.
I mean, last night I was just complaining about how Lauren never really does anything around the house, monopolizes the utilities, and then complains about how she never gets anything and blah blah blah. And I'm always getting yelled at and put down and shit, Noone ever says anything to Lauren, and if you do say something to her she gets really pissed off at you and throws a fit. And my mom comes in screaming about how WE are putting down HER daughter and she doesn't like it, like we aren't even related or don't even care about Lauren. It's just so fucked up because I honestly feel like I am on the bottom of my mom's list and my sister and brother are up top, because they are not my dad's. It really hurts me to feel like she doesn't even recognize me as her daughter. I mean. It really. Really hurts.